daysofgrace13ben

Well I have really nothing to write besides the fact that today is now day 3 of my new life. I figured I fucked up my old one so I shall be reborn. But can I live up to what I have to be? That is yet to be seen. I know by 11/13/09 we will no for pretty much for sure. But the problem...
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Happy Halloween to all those in SG land! I"M out! Peace!

I can't wait for Halloween. I fucking love Halloween. It is my favorite holiday-if you consider it a holiday. The only thing that sucks is that I work. But it will still be cool cos the casino is giving away a car and it will be packed and all the crazy ass people will be out in costumes all fucked up. There are a lot...
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I got a lot of shit going on right now between 3 jobs, starting a new band, a woman I love but does not see me, family problems mental issues and losing weight. Fuck everything else i know I'll handle that shit but losing weight is actually seeming to be the hardest. I'm 6'1" and weigh 233 pounds. I'm not fat - just sloppy. I...
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Hi to everyone out there. I can't sleep!!!! I'm gonna try again!

Well I was off today and it sucked. Slept in till 3 in the afternoon and got nothing done. To much OT. Every day that I go to work I end up doing OT. I do need it but I am Fucking killing myself in the process of making more money. Maybe I am greedy or just needy. I think the latter.

Well me and...
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Well this shit with Kristen really has not worked out at all. She is not at all who I thought she was. She lacks so much confidence yet she hides it all behind a sophisticated facade - just like Holly Golightly. Hell she might actually be the red headed Holly Golightly. We are not angry at each other it is simply just time that she...
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Today went well.I was off and I'm off tomorrow as well. I have been doing so much OT that I have not found any time to write. Kristen an I went out a few times but it didn't work out. We are still friends though. It doesn't stop the feeling of rejection and never being good enough. But anyhow I got a lot to do...
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I got punched in a bar fight at work today. It hurt but really felt good----it let me know I am alive.

Back to work to morrow. That so blows. I really hope her days off are Thursday/Friday. I don't want to see her even though I like her-in both ways. I just get so fucking nervous and anxious when I am around her. I get to the point where I get sick. Well I know I will never have her so I am thinking about switching...
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Well as you all know my life fucking sucks. But everyone give love to Dice at midnight when her set hits member review!!!! Peace!

Well I am finally off for 2 days. Just did a lot of stuff I needed to get done-but I am still so tired and still gotta clean my piece of shit car. I did 9 days of overtime in a row. Well at least the paycheck will be nice. I am going to do my best to enjoy my 2 days off. Well 1...
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