daysofgrace13ben

Well it is back to work today. Gotta make that money. I am kinda glad cos when I am not working I kinda get depressed and have anxiety attacks. I know that is weird but work truly keeps my mind very fucking busy which is good. Yes I deal with a lot of assholes but for some reason I happen to be very good at...
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Oh how I miss the old days. Not a care in the fucking world. Now it is just work and stress. I really can't take this stress and anxiety any more. Nothing seems to help at all. I wanna cry but must move on. Be a soldier pick my head and move forward never looking back. Live with no more regrets. Live like today is...
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I got a new tattoo!

Heroes live for ever
Rangers lead the way

R.I.P. Sgt. Renninger

So i did make the most of my day yesterday for the most part. The best part is that it snowed 3 inches. I love snow and how graceful it is. I no I probably sound like a wimp well I really am. And I don't care. I gotta work today but not till 11:00pm and I really don't care cos it is money I...
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I will make the most of this day. Finally.

I am so sick right now. I feel like I am gonna die. I don't even know why I am at the fucking computer. However I did get new speakers so I can hear things. I am so sick I can't even keep down ginger ale. Well to all peace.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I have been on a diet for the past 4 fucking weeks and today I am gonna eat my fat ass off! I'm not going to sleep at all today cos if I do it will screw everything up. So hell with it. I would be more tired if I got 21/2 hours of sleep than if I didn't sleep any way....
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Well i made it through my first night on night shift at the casino. It really sucked but I can't complain because I am getting paid $1.50 more an hour. The first 2-3 hours are very, very hectic but after that it turns into a grave yard. I guess that is why they call it grave shift. Well the other two jobs are going well...
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I was just inspired by a blog by dice. I called off work. I turned my phone off. And am just going to chill. Peace!

What is lost can never be saved. Well that is true. But can the future be saved. I don't know. I guess you can't because it is in the future. Well I hope mine can be. Cos I have really fucked up the past or what is lost. I just think I have to focus on the future and some how put the past away....
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I can't hardly remember the last time I posted a blog-as if they are read any way. I really don't care if they are or not it is a good way to get some feelings out. Well I have not written in a while cos I am so busy with work--I'm still working crazy OT. And I know I will continue working three jobs.
I...
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