daysofgrace13ben

well today i lived, lived like a man and am prepared to die like a man. they say there comes a time in a mans life when he looks back and all he sees is regret. well i got another chance at life today-a last chance.were i go from here is up to me-only me. there are some things i have to change. some may...
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i've lived my whole life in the grey light-half way between life and death. tommorow 12:01am i shall truly live. i must.

well we ended up going on at 6:00 rather then 8:00 but we didn't care. there was a good crowd about 200 people in this once t-shirt making building. it has been renovated and is now used for punk/metal/emo shows. a lot of the crowd new us when we went on which was good. we played a 7 song set and i broke out the...
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well not much happened today. i went down to easton early to help my friend put up a fence. then had a quick practice with the band. tomorrow we play for the 1st time in about a month and a half in allentown. i am always a little nervous before shows but we are ready. a couple rum and cokes and i'll be fine. well...
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had a great day with lauren. very romantic went out to eat just made it a great day. now i high and drunk(she has been asleep since 10:00.) so i am gonna put up drunken poem written years ago about a very sad part of my life cos i am feeling a little depressed. don't have a fucking clue why.

autumn
with a slit wrist...
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i just got back from the show in NJ. drank a lot of beer and met a lot of new cool people. there were a ton of bands playing. i especially liked DEMONIC POSSESSION AND REAR NAKED CHOKE. they were by far the most talented and they stuck to what they were good at--hardcore punk. they were real heavy and hard. any way our band...
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i am really stoked about what is going on these past couple days. first i got an interview for a part time security job at the sands casinos. if i get this job combined with working at the prison i can make some decent money. the down side is less practice time with the band, however i'm sure we can work this out. it is...
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today i was back to work. no major problems with exception of a cell extraction that luckily did not happen. an inmate that is often a problem flooded his cell. so i had to get all suited up. luckily once we filled his cell with pepper spray he had enough and was cuffed and sent to the hole with out any more problems. went out...
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today went great. played with the band but back to work on thursday.

here just some random drunken shit.

13 days
13 days of grace
to stare down this fool
then watch in awe
as june crashes practically poetically
in flames
sever all
ties that bind
free your self
liberate your mind
jester joker
jester laughter
i am your jester drank the poisoned wine for...
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today was a very good day. i talked with my girl for a long time and we both feel a lot better. we just gotta stick together and look up. anyway i've talked about my band alot so i'll tell alot more. our band name is adele's lullaby. we sound like smashing pumpkins meets bad religion meets the get up kids meets slayer. sounds crazy....
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practiced with the band almost all day. were just playing local shows and practicing. it seems far away but we should be recording by october. on a sad note a girl i've known since i was ten--her brother died. he was a state trooper and he got in a shootout with a guy trying to kill his own kid. i guess they shot at each...
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SATURDAY NIGHT I WENT OUT WITH MY GIRL AND MY FRIEND AND HIS GIRL. I WANTED TO GET ALL THE SHIT OFF MY MIND BUT WAS NERVOUS BECAUSE THIS BAR WAS TOTALLY UP SCALE. AND THAT IS NOT ME ALL. WELL IT WASN'T BAD AT ALL. I HAD SOME GREAT STEAK AND SOME BEERS. IT WAS ALL COOL TILL MY GIRL STARTED GETTING IN HER...
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