I submitted a proposal to present at a small conference on my school's campus just now, which isn't that big of a deal, but it is forcing me to reconcile myself to the fact that I AM A SERIOUS GRADUATE STUDENT AND MUST START TRYING TO PUBLISH, which is cool, but frustrating in that I really just want to teach, it's what I love the most and the thing that excites me about graduate school, which I know must sound insane to anyone who is either a student or a graduate student, but I used to teach middle-schoolers FOR FREE (yeah, I know).

Anyway, I'm needlessly freaked out and self-conscious because everyone around me is just so talented and insightful and innovative and so, so fucking YOUNG, and I'm just a tired old man who likes to try to get undergrads to critically think.