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May 22, 2015
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I've been thinking about photography a lot lately. But the irony is that I haven't really been shooting. A brief and hopefully not boring history lesson. Before I started shooting for this site my only plan was to build a great relationship with the models on the site in order to use for my own projects and own photography. Ultimately I became staff because it seemed like a good match at the time and do I regret doing that? No not at all. I pretty much got what I wanted from my photography, to have a following and have my work noticed by a lot of people, and for a time this was great, I felt accomplished and satisfied with the work I was producing, I was in a sense, fulfilled by it. I recently came to the conclusion that I ONLY approached photography now days from a 'glamour sg' point of view and quite frankly, it's become a bit stale to me. That view point I've found is very limiting when the idea of photography is essentially limitless. I still love the photos I take, they just don't have the same resonance as they used to.

Goals are a funny thing, when you get to the end of the line it never really feels like what you'd think it would be like. Rethinking how I approach taking portraits seems to be my next step. I think this came into light when I started to shoot some non-sg related models and realizing that their goals in being a model was not the same as shooting sets for SG. It kinda bothered me that I was in this tunnel type vision of photography and I'm trying to figure out how to approach it again. A part of me feels a little 'stuck' by the whole process.

What is a portrait anyway? Am I really capturing who the person is really like in my shots or a version of that person who essentially want a certain type of attention. Is that portrayal false? I've never liked the idea of calling myself a glamour photographer, but it is essentially what i do. Lets look at the Glamour.

Glamour is defined as....

1: a magic spell <the girls appeared to be under a glamour — Llewelyn Powys>

2 : an exciting and often illusory and romantic attractiveness <the glamour of Hollywood>; especially : alluring or fascinating attraction —often used attributively <glamour stock> <glamour girls> <whooping cranes and … other glamour birds — R. T. Peterson>
key words 'magic' and 'illusory'
so am I really capturing what these girls are really like in a real life basis? I don't think so.
I think a part of my original goal with my photography was to achieve a level of intimacy. I don't think I can quite put it into words what it is really like to know a bunch of these amazing girls and have some of them be a part of my life and be some my closest friends. That aspect is also what photography should be about.
There's a lot "wrong" with photography too as a picture is up to someone's interpretation of it. A picture could mean one thing to a person and something entirely different to another. So is photography in any form truly genuine in telling a story? I'm not sure how people view my life, just seeing it through snapshots of instagram and other social media with really no full story behind the life. I bet people think my life is a lot more exciting than it really is though. Hell I would... if it wasn't my life.
I feel like i've been missing a piece of the puzzle lately.
I feel like i need to unlearn everything and start all over again

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bixton:
Thinking about you these days, and hoping you're taking these waves for the ride. <3 you got this Darryl and you just might need a little refresher in your own head to believe it. Mental trips help in more ways than one, and it might be time for a little vacation to freshen up that soul!
Nov 7, 2015
tiger:
Well at least your mastery of  lighting has changed. ;) I wish I even had a style to buck in the first place.
Nov 15, 2015

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