darkkobra

ok i believe god n shit, i might not practice religion stuff but when i was younger i did all the time. i pray almost every day cuz i feel weird if i dont. ive prayed for someone to actually fill the void in my life for many years, and when someone finally comes to my life and wants to be with me, i continue to pray that it was real. it felt like i was finally being given a reason to want to change and b someone. now i just want this empty feeling to go away. there is nothing worst then to start to open up to someone to believe u have something to look forward to, a reason to b more. just to have it ripped away knowing that it wont come back. i would rather have my teeth pulled, my nails removed, my bones broken then to feel like this. i would rather die a thousand times just to show her how much i wanted how much i needed her. i told her how i felt but i guess i was just to late. she isnt even talking to me now. even though she didnt tell me i know she went back to her ex. i just miss holding her in my arms