Does it get any better?
1,5 or 2 weeks of Italy, noodles and pizza till heaven.
I *might* even try to sneak into some quite exotic goth/sm/I don't even know what it is/thing/party called decadence, because why not!
Seems I need to pack more than usual - books, small computers and a pile of black clothing ;-)
Better for both I guess. Yet, everything feels wrong. So utterly wrong.
What good is reality anyway?
orion72:
If you're damned, find another reality.
I'm grateful you're all here. a slightly secret community that is still around doing wonderful things after a day that should just be taken off the calendar.
Me: "Hey M., are you coming over anytime soon? We're all waiting"
M.: "Oh, no idea, this thing won't work. Linux multipathing sucks."
Me: "Anything I can do to help?"
M.: "No, there's no one who can help me."
Me: "Well, they got a new waitress over here. She's wearing a black leather skirt. Maybe she can help you?"
M.: "I'll be there...
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darkfader113:
Dug out strawberry gashes... Can't keep this song... off.. my... miiiiiiind... I know this is the overplayed song of theirs, but after listening the album up and down, this *is* the one that sticks best. The variations in speed are just so wonderful. It won't go away anymore.
I'm starting to run low on humor for this whole carry-on-with-trying thing. Just once I'd love to not get a no from someone I really want to be with, to hug, to cuddle and to enjoy doing all kinds of things that are totally unacceptable in the grand scheme of being serious.
And for the fourth time now, it's been a no.
While somehow...
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darkfader113:
taken by love of my life, just wasn't aware of that back then. much less so that she saw me first, not my friend who I'd never gottten in the way. fuck my life. could've been married ever since and gave it a pass, never even knowing. jess... we should've gone down in flames - instead of wasting our lifes! equilibrium was _never ours_.
I've come around to this:
I miss watching the old fight club website. it was in flash, when flash was new and I went there each night, to listen to the soundtack on my Sun Sparcsserver 20 workstation which I had carried from Berlin to my home. it had become a ritual - and some - few - years ago foxmovies.com/fightclub finally went offline and I can't visit it no...
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Talked with a friend, 3.5 to 5 years is the normal time it takes men to forget if they really loved you and you said no. If you change your mind in *that* meantime, just come around, and try.
If they won't say yes, they didn't mean it. (but please, don't waste all that love just for some silly agenda or making sure we try...
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