Folks i have another confession to make. Maybe four years ago? I started taking two antidepressants together. I’ve been on and off anti depressants for much of my adult life. When i was off them, it was hard on my wife and son. So i decided it is in my best interests, and theirs, to stick with em.
This new cocktail i tried? Works great. I’ve been solid for years on it now. I’ve made alot of progress dealing with my mild depression over the years, which in many ways seems just an outcome of having perfectionism and a hyperactive analytical brain. I am looking at life way more positively than i ever have. Dealing with challenges and traumas pretty well by shrink and therapist standards. There is one possible side effect of this combination i’m on. Early morning waking.
My sleep cycle is crazy. I wake up at 2am, 4am. Usually if i have work to do? I start working every day at 4am. My job could handle this for awhile, i was working almost exclusively from home. Now though? I go to an office four days a week. So usually i am in office from about 8:30a-9am to 3 pm. And i have a 1 hr commute in the am and a 1.5 hr commute at 3p.
So because some days i work from about 4am to 3pm? I’m crazy tired on the drive home. I get home and plop down on the couch. Doze for an hr or so. I’m a master napper. I catch up on sleep whenever i can. I go to bed usually around 10p. But i cannot for the life of me sleep a whole night through unless alcohol is involved. This is very infrequent for me, i booze hardly at all. Just no interest anymore unless it is social.
So it drives my family a little crazy this sleep schedule. I’ve done a sleep study, but avoided getting the results. I think it’s just a behavioral habit now, to be alone while my family sleeps. I’d like to kick it. I may need to quit caffeine and coffee, which is a real guilty pleasure to me. Thanks to sg for being there for me while i go through these sleepless periods.
