I've got this dog. Titi. She's a mini dacschund, about 14 years old. This is her, she used to be full red but now is white.
Anyway, titi is the love of my life. I've always been a dog lover. My first dog was a puppy when i was a baby. Shuey. We put her to sleep at 18. My wife and i scored titi when she was 1 or so. the dog is jealous when i smooch with my wife. She talks alot, whining, asking for attention and begging for snacks. Circus dog. Imagine bigtop music.
Many dogs in my life between these two. But titi got sick last fall. Wouldn't eat. I'm like shit. Cancer. She has premium insurance this dog is so spoiled. Better healthcare then us. They do tests, and find high calcium. Either cancer or parathyroid tumor. Turns out thankfully parathyroid. That is treatable. This happens over christmas now 2015. I consult with the surgeons. But i get a bad quote for the surgery. I thought, morning of, it would be about 2k.
Turns out it was a partial quote, and the real quote is 8k. Oh god. 12/23 and i have to decide on the spot without my wife or son present if we should do this or not. Life or death for the dog. My love. The constant in my life through my 13 year relationship with my wife. I don't currently have this money. But i call mireya and tell her i'm gonna spend it. I can't say goodbye yet. I can't do this during christmas.
So titi spent a week in the hospital. Recovered from surgery over two months. I still feed her tums every day as a source of calcium. We don't know for sure that she's able to regulate following removal of one of her 4 glands. I don't care. I treasure every fucking day with her. I think it keeps her going. But everyday when i go to her room (yes she has her own room, so does her fat blind daughter bambina) i wonder if she will be able to wake and come get her daily cheerios as a stimulant for breakfast.
I have faced many deaths. Pretty traumatic ones and survived. I don't know how to face titi's eventual passing. I feel like i can't right now. I had to prepare for both of my parents respective deaths by cancer. I was able to do that. Years later, i'm just not sure what this passing will do to me.
That is life. You cannot prepare adequately i guess for your response to any passing.
