I think too much.
That's hardly a new development, but i do. And i've been thinking in overtime recently. And i've got lots of conclusions.
I went to Dublin last weekend. I hate Dublin. I really hate it. Sounds silly, to hate somewhere with very few good reasons for doing so. But it do. But i went, and met the beautiful Sparrow, who i absolutly adore. I'm glad i've gotton to know her, she's an absolute gem, and so sweet. I can't even describe. So, we went to see Motion City Soundtrack, who were really, REALLY good, even though we were (almost) the oldest people there. But it was great. I want to go hang out with her more often, she's wonderful.
Anyway, i bumped into someone at the gig. Someone i used to date like a million years ago. It was never anything serious, cuz well, let's call a spade a spade, he couldn't get it together enough for it to be any more than what it was. And after years of the "on-off", "are we-aren't we" thing, and i had enough, and walked away from it. And when i bumped into him, we get on as well now as we did then. It's like nothings changed. We just have a proper giggle with each other, and i was thinking, y'know, maybe............. And then i realised, no. I'm not settling for less than seahorse-ness. That might make no sense, but it does to me.
And that's what gotton me down. Cuz when i was 17 and me and that guy met, and for the next 5 years i wasn't a seahorse. And i'm right back there again. And at 26 i should really know better. So, i gots to re-learn i suppose.
I got some things to sort out and think on. But the things i've been wasting my energy on aren't worth it really. And it's slightly heartbreaking. Knowing you've to completly turn everything on it's head, to make things right. But, what harm, Let's just plough on and move on.
I fell, an hurt my leg. It REALLY hurts.
And i'm back studying again. I tried to start last night, and i was actually doing ok, but i started thinking (story of my fucking life) and got sad, and had to stop. So, today is devoted to study, but i want to get out of the house too, so................i'm going to the beach to study.
So, that's it really. I'm giving up the emo. I have new things to concentrate on. Just have to learn HOW to concentrate on these things. It's harder than it looks.
And i'm not wasting my time and energy anymore.
Now, to get off my fat bum and actually GET to the beach. I'm so excited.
That's hardly a new development, but i do. And i've been thinking in overtime recently. And i've got lots of conclusions.
I went to Dublin last weekend. I hate Dublin. I really hate it. Sounds silly, to hate somewhere with very few good reasons for doing so. But it do. But i went, and met the beautiful Sparrow, who i absolutly adore. I'm glad i've gotton to know her, she's an absolute gem, and so sweet. I can't even describe. So, we went to see Motion City Soundtrack, who were really, REALLY good, even though we were (almost) the oldest people there. But it was great. I want to go hang out with her more often, she's wonderful.
Anyway, i bumped into someone at the gig. Someone i used to date like a million years ago. It was never anything serious, cuz well, let's call a spade a spade, he couldn't get it together enough for it to be any more than what it was. And after years of the "on-off", "are we-aren't we" thing, and i had enough, and walked away from it. And when i bumped into him, we get on as well now as we did then. It's like nothings changed. We just have a proper giggle with each other, and i was thinking, y'know, maybe............. And then i realised, no. I'm not settling for less than seahorse-ness. That might make no sense, but it does to me.
And that's what gotton me down. Cuz when i was 17 and me and that guy met, and for the next 5 years i wasn't a seahorse. And i'm right back there again. And at 26 i should really know better. So, i gots to re-learn i suppose.
I got some things to sort out and think on. But the things i've been wasting my energy on aren't worth it really. And it's slightly heartbreaking. Knowing you've to completly turn everything on it's head, to make things right. But, what harm, Let's just plough on and move on.
I fell, an hurt my leg. It REALLY hurts.
And i'm back studying again. I tried to start last night, and i was actually doing ok, but i started thinking (story of my fucking life) and got sad, and had to stop. So, today is devoted to study, but i want to get out of the house too, so................i'm going to the beach to study.
So, that's it really. I'm giving up the emo. I have new things to concentrate on. Just have to learn HOW to concentrate on these things. It's harder than it looks.
And i'm not wasting my time and energy anymore.
Now, to get off my fat bum and actually GET to the beach. I'm so excited.
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however i need to get away from this site, its not at all what its supposed to be, chilishness and drama i dont need.
i already taken the first step in the new venture i was tellin you about last week, so dont you once worry, its gonna all be ok.
promise.
i fucking love you lady. always. thanks for being an amazing friend.
Prefer the country life myself and am especially sad having just come back from Cork & Waterford again.