daisy

I'm so fucking restless. Everything feels wrong and not right, and i can't spell for shit.

I hate this mood i'm in right now. I want to scream, very loudly. Anyone care? Thought not.

So, ill update: my bird flu has gone, almost. I bought a new cute polka dot tank top on friday, and wore it out on Saturday (i HAD to go out on Saturday, despite being ill, to go watch eurovision, and represent. The barman made a flag out of beermats, i loved it) and the new top is low cute, like, really, and my chest is now so destroyed. I'm hacking up, and coughing like a 90 year old woman.

*cough cough splutter splutter*

I'm in the good books at work, cuz i did good. I earned the bank a couple of grand today, pity i don't see any of it.

Someone i quite like made an off the cuff remark, and it was meant to be cute and funny, and i didn't take it that way at all. To be honest, it upset me, and made me think long and hard last night about how shitty and pointless my life is. I'm not looking for sympathy,trust me, but my life needs to change.

A lot needs to change. I trust people too easy. That needs to change, fast. I keep getting hurt, again and again, and not learning. I've made a really really good and decent friend recently. It upsets me that he probably doesn't know how much i hold him in regard. I love you Brain, know that, honestly i do.

I think too much. Sorry. And i ramble.




That's my thinking face. I'll stop now. Night lovelys.