Plans for the weekend and my bday...
Friday - carve pumpkins and work out... saving energy for the rest of the weekend....
Saturday - work morning and then go see The Lovemakers at Cafe Du Nord in sf.....
Sunday - work morning and ????? wow wait no plans for Halloween.... maybe 'the boy' will actually do something for me for a change... (won't hold my breath on that)
Monday - wine tasting in Napa and Sonoma with all my bestest friends......
You know this year I could really care less that its my bday.... wierd..!!
Hope everyone has a fantastic and productive weekend!! 
OK YOU KNEW IT WAS GOING TO REAPPEAR
I don't know what it is but I feel so lonely at times...... so bad that I don't know what to do with myself lately...... I can't lie and say that I have it rough or my life right now is in a slump cause that would be the farthest thing from the truth.
I like to think I have a lot going for me at this point in my life... I have my own apt, my own car, 2-3 jobs, good friends, fantastic mother, I now pay every single bill I have, and yet I feel like I accomplish nothing from day to day.... I cry every night before sleeping for whatever reason... I constantly buy myself things in hopes to cheer myself up and then that passes within moments after.... Now I am trying to get a cat so I have something at home when I get there... thats living... once again trying to fill some void... *sigh* I know its not a depression disease or something cause god knows I have taken every pill possible and have only felt worse... I just really want to be in love and to be happy and for that person to be in love with me and to be happy and for that feeling to stay that way.. I don't want it to fade or pass after our time together has ran its course... I mean don't get me wrong I realize it takes a lot of work and changes need to be made in order for that to happen, but I have never been so willing and ready..... ever!!!!!! I know this feeling will pass and I will eventually find someone and the same process and routine will fall into place... but god please can it be soon....
Why do I love him so?????
Friday - carve pumpkins and work out... saving energy for the rest of the weekend....
Saturday - work morning and then go see The Lovemakers at Cafe Du Nord in sf.....
Sunday - work morning and ????? wow wait no plans for Halloween.... maybe 'the boy' will actually do something for me for a change... (won't hold my breath on that)
Monday - wine tasting in Napa and Sonoma with all my bestest friends......
You know this year I could really care less that its my bday.... wierd..!!
Hope everyone has a fantastic and productive weekend!!
OK YOU KNEW IT WAS GOING TO REAPPEAR
I don't know what it is but I feel so lonely at times...... so bad that I don't know what to do with myself lately...... I can't lie and say that I have it rough or my life right now is in a slump cause that would be the farthest thing from the truth.
I like to think I have a lot going for me at this point in my life... I have my own apt, my own car, 2-3 jobs, good friends, fantastic mother, I now pay every single bill I have, and yet I feel like I accomplish nothing from day to day.... I cry every night before sleeping for whatever reason... I constantly buy myself things in hopes to cheer myself up and then that passes within moments after.... Now I am trying to get a cat so I have something at home when I get there... thats living... once again trying to fill some void... *sigh* I know its not a depression disease or something cause god knows I have taken every pill possible and have only felt worse... I just really want to be in love and to be happy and for that person to be in love with me and to be happy and for that feeling to stay that way.. I don't want it to fade or pass after our time together has ran its course... I mean don't get me wrong I realize it takes a lot of work and changes need to be made in order for that to happen, but I have never been so willing and ready..... ever!!!!!! I know this feeling will pass and I will eventually find someone and the same process and routine will fall into place... but god please can it be soon....
Why do I love him so?????VIEW 25 of 128 COMMENTS
falias:
happy happy joy joy! 
schiavona:
Soooo? How was the weekend? Mine pretty well sucked as I felt bad all weekend, Monday and Tuesday. Well, today too if truth be known. Hope you had a good time.
