so right now i am in a manic kinda state of mind.. the combination of natural paranoia and the other unknown psychosis i deal with day to day is catching up with me all at once right now.. i'm wide eyed and pumping full of adrenaline and barely able to think straight.. i have indescribable amounts of rage pulsing through me right now and i cant understand why... so currently i'm pumping it out into an informative piece to men about women.. lately i feel myself becomming more and more sexist.. i used to think it was women to needed glorification and to be liberated considering all the crap women went through in history, but as of late i see it more lately as men being oppressed in our society.. how a male can not get a job over a woman and the simple control men allow women to have over them, and how corrupt women become with this power. i know right now i am just emotional and confused but women appear so selfish to me right now and i can hardly stand the thought of them without being pissed off and i am having trouble even thinking of them as anything more than... i'm not going to say that for i'll regret it later.. there are few exceptions in my mind right now that are not making me enraged... i dare not confront them and about this for i will more than likely think differently about this come morning, but i cant help but question if this is what i truely think or not.. do i hate women.. i dont know.. i am attracted sexually towards women but who is to say that i cant hate them at the same time.. i see women as corrupt terrible creatures with a whole world of complaints and desires for empathy but no sympathy to give to the opposite sex.. god i am so pissed and i cant explain why just as of yet.. it may be because of the piece i am writing.. i am basicly writing an informative piece to enlighten men and give men the power of "no" to counter act women who have the power of "yes" i feel that equality is necessary, but i still feel myself slipping more towards a male sympathetic view and i seriously need to just get up right now and goto bed and i'm not even sure if i should post this for i have never felt this sexist in my life... but why deny the chance to wake up tommorow and re-read this and analyze why i was thinking this way... what a mess...
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