Well I'm going to start with the bad news since i know i always preffer to hear it first. As you may know me and my mom have 2 cats sunshine and taylor. Well sunshine has been getting sick latelly so we decided to pupt her out of her pain and put her to sleep today. I will miss her greatly. I handled her being put down well but my mom didnt. I know she will be crying about it for a week or so and ill do my best to comfort her.
This sunday was both my grandmothers birthday party and the birthday party for my best friend roccos middle son arron.
My grandmothers party was of course a family thing and EVERYONE was there. My aunt cindy my uncle ricky and his wife mary kay and even my aunt kathi who we never get to see cause she lives all the way down in south carolina. We ussually don't get along that well. Its not always "fighting" persay but ussually just bickering and bitching. But this time everyone got along great. My aunt kathi who ussually drinks WAYYYY to much had one drink at the beginning and then drank iced tea the rest of the meal. The food how ever was not so good. First off we went to a place called ADOBE which is sapposed to be upper class mexican food which translates to yuppyfied mexican food. Second off I dont like mexican food. The meal started out with guacamole which they make from scratch at the table. Well both me and my mom dont like guacamole sowe didnt have any then we ordered our food i actually liked what i got ( it was like a mexican chicken wrap thing not really worth what i payed for it but still good) my mom hated her food though.
After that we headed straight over to Arrons 3rd birthday party. As soon as i entered the restaurant (roccos family owns and runs a chain of italian foodrestaurants on the south side of chicago and it was held at one of them
) Arron ran straight at me and wouldnt let me put him downfor like 20 minutes. He loves me sooo much lol he calls me uncle John. Me and my mom had a great time all the kids loved me especially two little girls who i think had little girl crushes on me lol it was cute. There was a magician there who all the children loved. I changed their youngest one mike at one point and im proud of myself its like the fifth time ive changed his diapers and im getting better and better at it. i told rocco when he came in while i was changing mike that you can tell who your best friend is by the guy willing to change your babies diapers with out complaint or want for compensation.
So onto the making choices part . As many or all of you know me and toni broke up a while ago it was talk about as a temporary break up til we could get our lives straightened out and then we would look into getting back together. Well in looking at my life i have not only decided i dont want to be in a relationship at all in general for quite a while. I have decided that i do not want to go back to toni at all. I dont know what conclussion she has come up with on her own but having not talked toher in almost 2 months has given me time to look at my life and look back at our relationship. I decided that it would be best for me not to get back into a relationship with her. Anyone who needs to know the reasons for my decision about toni probably does already. I dont know what toni has decided in these past few months but this is my decision and i wont be changing it. If she hasnt come to this conclussion she may be upset at reading this. But she had told me a whle back that im not alowed to call her so im not going to at least not when it comes to this. and since this isnt on myspace and she wil NEVER read it i can say what i want abou ther like she is a self centered bitch. Who only can stand it when everything in a situation revolves around her she used me and from what im hearing doesnt give a shit that she hurt me so for all i care she can fuck off. oh and she owes my mom $200 and my mom has NOOOOOO problem taking her ass to court over it
Well thats it my job is going great and im doing great at it . I've been spending alot of times with friends new and old. I've started to become the guy i used to be who had tons of friends and spent lots of time with them.Another thing i realised is that while i have been making some changes in my life that had been suggested there are many i am not changing cause they are me and a part of me and to change them would be to change who I am and i liek me and who i am. well that is all for now feal free to comment and say what you want as you know once again i LOVE comments
This sunday was both my grandmothers birthday party and the birthday party for my best friend roccos middle son arron.
My grandmothers party was of course a family thing and EVERYONE was there. My aunt cindy my uncle ricky and his wife mary kay and even my aunt kathi who we never get to see cause she lives all the way down in south carolina. We ussually don't get along that well. Its not always "fighting" persay but ussually just bickering and bitching. But this time everyone got along great. My aunt kathi who ussually drinks WAYYYY to much had one drink at the beginning and then drank iced tea the rest of the meal. The food how ever was not so good. First off we went to a place called ADOBE which is sapposed to be upper class mexican food which translates to yuppyfied mexican food. Second off I dont like mexican food. The meal started out with guacamole which they make from scratch at the table. Well both me and my mom dont like guacamole sowe didnt have any then we ordered our food i actually liked what i got ( it was like a mexican chicken wrap thing not really worth what i payed for it but still good) my mom hated her food though.
After that we headed straight over to Arrons 3rd birthday party. As soon as i entered the restaurant (roccos family owns and runs a chain of italian foodrestaurants on the south side of chicago and it was held at one of them
) Arron ran straight at me and wouldnt let me put him downfor like 20 minutes. He loves me sooo much lol he calls me uncle John. Me and my mom had a great time all the kids loved me especially two little girls who i think had little girl crushes on me lol it was cute. There was a magician there who all the children loved. I changed their youngest one mike at one point and im proud of myself its like the fifth time ive changed his diapers and im getting better and better at it. i told rocco when he came in while i was changing mike that you can tell who your best friend is by the guy willing to change your babies diapers with out complaint or want for compensation.
So onto the making choices part . As many or all of you know me and toni broke up a while ago it was talk about as a temporary break up til we could get our lives straightened out and then we would look into getting back together. Well in looking at my life i have not only decided i dont want to be in a relationship at all in general for quite a while. I have decided that i do not want to go back to toni at all. I dont know what conclussion she has come up with on her own but having not talked toher in almost 2 months has given me time to look at my life and look back at our relationship. I decided that it would be best for me not to get back into a relationship with her. Anyone who needs to know the reasons for my decision about toni probably does already. I dont know what toni has decided in these past few months but this is my decision and i wont be changing it. If she hasnt come to this conclussion she may be upset at reading this. But she had told me a whle back that im not alowed to call her so im not going to at least not when it comes to this. and since this isnt on myspace and she wil NEVER read it i can say what i want abou ther like she is a self centered bitch. Who only can stand it when everything in a situation revolves around her she used me and from what im hearing doesnt give a shit that she hurt me so for all i care she can fuck off. oh and she owes my mom $200 and my mom has NOOOOOO problem taking her ass to court over it
Well thats it my job is going great and im doing great at it . I've been spending alot of times with friends new and old. I've started to become the guy i used to be who had tons of friends and spent lots of time with them.Another thing i realised is that while i have been making some changes in my life that had been suggested there are many i am not changing cause they are me and a part of me and to change them would be to change who I am and i liek me and who i am. well that is all for now feal free to comment and say what you want as you know once again i LOVE comments
I'm glad to hear you aunt didn't get drunky pants and pee in the birthday watermelon this year. - I have an aunt just like that....
Kids.... oh boy kids..... Gotta love 'em but don't look into thier eyes. They'll put you in a trance and make you think you want one....
They're always cute when they belong to someone else, but when you have one of your own.... it's a lil' different.
Not saying that you shouldn't have kids, but just not right now. They are a true blessing when you have the right person to share them with. Don't rush yourself on that, dear, you have plenty of time to make one... or five... of your own.
As for your ending relationship- I am deaply sorry that the both of you have to go through this. I dont know her, I have nothing against her, but she should have treated you better. The way you deserve to be treated. You are not a puppet on strings made for her amusement. Like they say, you don't really know you have a good thing untill it's gone. I wish you both the best and hope you both learn from this and move on to a better life.
With all of that said.... get online.... I'm lonely.
-hugs- poor yall losing pet sucks.
yer mom is nutso. going to court over 200$ will cost more than she gets back from suing for it in costs -laughs-
kids -le sigh-
growing up/old whatever -le sigh-
so surreal.
see youve had some trying and erm quite hectic times lately eh bro?
<3