cunnie

Being broke is definately taking a toll. I'm almost at the point of not being able to afford to work. haha. i can't afford daycare. ateast the bf still doesn't have a job so he can watch her for now. caitlin's dad hasn't called in a while which is good for her really but it sucks knowing i chose to create a life with such...
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I am absolutely in love with him and I would marry him if only...
I'm thinking about moving. I'm not sure where but I want to get out of Maine. I'm petrified of driving and that definately limits my ability to move and where I would be able to move to. grrr stupid anxiety and panic attacks. so many people drive that shouldn't and so...
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ah finally a day off. the baby is at her dad's. it's the first time he has seen her in over a month. im a little worried but i need a few hours to relax. i needed some sleep and to be ble to get my head on straight. if i'm not in a good space i can't be a good mom. i know she'll...
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many hours at the doctor's office with my seemingly unending sickly child has finally given me some answers. the doctor's weren't lying when they said she had viral infections ALL winter long but now she has Henoch-Schnlein Purpura. i have to leave work early again tomorrow to get lab work done and make sure her kidneys are ok. what is this....my 2 year old has...
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Dear ....

i love you. i love how you talk, how you look and how you move. i love the way you call me on my fuck ups and tell me to calm the fuck down. you are the nicest person i have ever met and it isn't just to me but to my daughter as well. her dad sucks and you know it but...
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i woke up an hour ago and thought it was the morning wow i need to stop napping. i callede the boyfriend flipping out because i thought he had stayed out all night. im a nut ball. go mallory.

i'm getting a tattoo tonight. im excited. i only have the mermaid on my leg. i've wanted the pheonix for a long time but couldn't decide where. i've decided to get it on the back of my neck and upper back. i'm not allowed to have tattoos or piercings showing for work. im getting it done once the bf gets home and can watch my...
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I think i'm becoming addicted to tanning. that's really funny since i've always been 'the pale girl'. i went a couple weeks ago just to try it out and now i've gone every other day for the last week. i've got tanning and smoking butts. shit i guess i'm really doomed to get cancer now. HA. i live in maine my skin probably sees less...
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i want to get my daughter a dog. her father told her she could have one for christmas and then for her birthday. conveniently he doesn't live with us so its another promise from daddy but a responsibility for mommy. we live with my boyfriend right now. he has an american eskimo and my daughter loves him but it's not her dog. i don't know...
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i'm realizing that i need to let myself get closer to people. i make friends, hang out with them a few times and then pretend they simply don't exist. i've had one friend true friend that i've had since i was 11 and that's it. sure i have tons of aquantices and tons of drinking buddies but not people to talk to, to tell secrets...
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