cunnie

i'm realizing that i need to let myself get closer to people. i make friends, hang out with them a few times and then pretend they simply don't exist. i've had one friend true friend that i've had since i was 11 and that's it. sure i have tons of aquantices and tons of drinking buddies but not people to talk to, to tell secrets to and to rant to. i've got the boyfriend but i can't come home from work and rant about it because he is my ex-boss and is still technically a boss to me since he is higher up the corporate ladder than me.
i don't get what a friend is supposed to do. maybe i don't care, that's the problem. i don't want to have to listen to other people's issues and help them fix them. i'll listen and i might even care but i can't fix my own shit why would i be able to fix someone elses? i'm a mom of a 2 year old who can't even get my daughter's father to commit to one visit a month. i work 50 hours a week and am fucking the boss so he had to change locations. wow.
i'm not scared of letting people know me i just don't know how to let them.