crystalblaze

Ok, I know I fell of the face of the planet. But that is how I feel. I had a lot going on in my life. I wasn't yet able to sit down and tell you guys about it because if I did, I would have fallen behind more. THe one man that came the closest to being everything I wanted, the most checks on the checklist, has just dumped me. I feel hurt. I feel angry. I feel sad. I feel confused. Why can't there just be a man that has not been taught by society to care for yourself more than others. Why can't there be a man that has an indestructable insatiable bottomless need to give love, energy, time, and tolerance. Why must everyone have limites. Why can't anyone be strong enough. THere has got to be a person who even thrives off of the notion of being sucked dry and needed. A man who loves to nurture, pamper, and force love. A man who can read my thoughts and give me what I need whether I want it or recognize it. Are you out there? Can you be used and abused and want more? Can you understand me? Can you love me? Well, everyone wants easy girls. Non physchiotic girls. Well balanced girls with no needs. Am I being realistic or fatalistic? I am not saying this because I was dumped...I've believed this my entire life. I am after all Casandra, I know the enevitable.