criticaloversite

Yeah...well, that about does it for my ugly mug. I can only take so much of my own narcissism. It's bad enough I have to deal with the sudden fashion trend of the self-absorbed "emo culture" that thrives in my local mall.

Perhaps you'd say I've been keeping to myself a lot more lately. Maybe I'd agree. I suppose it's good to share your thoughts and feelings on things, and get some feedback from your peers, even if you don't like what they have to say. Not many people really agree with this. By now , I'd imagine you get the idea that I'm pretty honest with myself about who I am and what my real motives are. Of course, I won't say "completely honest". We all lie to ourselves from time to time. It keeps the ego strong. However, I think when people encounter someone who hails from the land of seemingly brutal self-awareness, a certain type of fear develops that the harsh grating sound of personal truths might be turned on them. We don't always want to see ourselves how others see us.

If my assumption (and mind you, that's pretty much what it is) is correct, then the fear at that point would be redundant. It's created in the first place out of a prediction (snap judgement?) of what is to come. In essence, you already know what is going to be said and that you don't really care to hear it. This brings you to a point where you realize that you too are capable of this gut-wrenching honesty.

See how idiotic that sounds? Now you might know why I don't do many of these "thoughtful posts" anymore. The reality is that I have no clue where I'm coming from on these issues.