I'm pretty bummed out today. Of course I decide to write in this blog because this is where I let myself be really emo for some reason. Probably because I see so many others just vent about their issues here.
So I've had days where i can't get up before, and that's very shitty. Today I couldn't get up until 7:30 at night. So what's the fucking problem? Dreams I guess. I have these fucking twisted dreams and I wake up feeling like I just ran a marathon, so I go back to sleep. How am I even able to sleep for 18 hours in the first place? I just don't know.
So what can I do now that my day's wasted? I feel like shit. I think about what's next and I have no idea. I think about transferring to some other college in some other place. I'd have to go for way longer but I feel like if I stay here in this shithole I'm just going to go crazy and fail out of school anyway. Maybe if I make more elaborate plans to ditch this place as soon as I graduate I can get some sense of motivation back. But I'm tired of living in the future. I need something for now. What do I need? what's missing? I'm totally broke. I work, I go to school, and every other minute I have so much shit to do that I couldn't possibly get it done - and it's all boring as fuck.
