coupleoffreaks

Yo what up all I am really drunk right now. Woop Woop. terd. but seriously I have been having strange days since my last post. I got all four of my wisdom teeth remove at once. Oh my god I want that Stuff they used to put me out with it was great. Appointment at 8:45 in the morning, Anistetic at 8:50, woke up 8:30pm on my couch with a bottle of vicadon. But yeah its been crazy. One I have talked to that girl again, probally wont ever again., but talked to her and got that straightened out. I have been stressin over money now just cause i am stupid and i worry about shit way too much but I dug a deep one this week. Its 4am Monday morning and i have $24 dollars in my bank account. I am fuct, i have bills to pay by the end of this week and i only worked three days on this last check. I am Fuct. I hate drugs why do I love them so. They always make me go broke and I always do way to much of them.
On the good side though, I have finally found a female friend whom I am completely and utterly capiable of telling anything to and trusting she wont tell anyone. It has helped me so much talking with her. And I think for the frist time since I ever really decided that I was old enough to make my own choices that I wanna get sober. If just for alittle bit. No I cant say that If i am going to do it I have to say sober. I am going to get sober so this stops happening I cant take it anymore. I have to much other shit to pay for. Now all i need is the will power in the morning. I think i am finally going to passout before day break for once goodie. later days