Okay sooo... I just got done cracking open a beer and taking a shower, and contemplating. Yes, I said I drank a beer in the shower... if you haven't tried it when stressed out, it is so choice, and I recommend it.
After the fireworks and drama Friday night, I'm seriously considering dusting off the 'ol bachelor card again. I just don't understand how you're supposed to function in a relationship with no trust, or wild mood swings and accusations.
I had a late meeting @ work, and then had a business dinner afterward that ran until about 8:30pm.... so meeting ended around 6:30-7pm, dinner for an hr and a half. She knew about it well in advance. But I didn't respond to her text messages for 2.5 hours. Obviously I'm a complete bastard and was fucking someone else. Obviously.
I woke up in the morning though, and thought to myself... self, I said, lets be a bastard today, what are the top two choices? It was close between tossing kittens into volcanoes, or not responding to text messages for 2.5 hours. The texting won out in the end. A hell-worthy offense to be sure...
Then today I'm being cold-shouldered and ignored even when i'm trying to be the bigger person in spite of having done absolutely nothing wrong. Maybe being too nice about things is the problem, and I should meet wild accusations with the same, and scream and pout and stomp my feet? But I just really try to minimize drama and fighting... wish others felt the same. :\
Staying just for the sake of trying to make someone whose life is already falling apart around them a little brighter and make sure they smile at least once in a while seems admirable, but I think I'm just being naieve waiting for an end to said drama. Can't be everything to everyone, or even everything to one person.
I really do wish sometimes I could just wildly go around flipping out on people and being surprised when they don't want to talk. I don't know how people in life function like that, irrationality FTW.
Ohhhh well... it's Saturday night in a city i'm still learning, and I think it may be time to prowl around soon... hope everyone else is having a good one.
p.s. I got my secret clearance finalized this week! I'm stoked about THAT one to be sure.
After the fireworks and drama Friday night, I'm seriously considering dusting off the 'ol bachelor card again. I just don't understand how you're supposed to function in a relationship with no trust, or wild mood swings and accusations.
I had a late meeting @ work, and then had a business dinner afterward that ran until about 8:30pm.... so meeting ended around 6:30-7pm, dinner for an hr and a half. She knew about it well in advance. But I didn't respond to her text messages for 2.5 hours. Obviously I'm a complete bastard and was fucking someone else. Obviously.
I woke up in the morning though, and thought to myself... self, I said, lets be a bastard today, what are the top two choices? It was close between tossing kittens into volcanoes, or not responding to text messages for 2.5 hours. The texting won out in the end. A hell-worthy offense to be sure...
Then today I'm being cold-shouldered and ignored even when i'm trying to be the bigger person in spite of having done absolutely nothing wrong. Maybe being too nice about things is the problem, and I should meet wild accusations with the same, and scream and pout and stomp my feet? But I just really try to minimize drama and fighting... wish others felt the same. :\
Staying just for the sake of trying to make someone whose life is already falling apart around them a little brighter and make sure they smile at least once in a while seems admirable, but I think I'm just being naieve waiting for an end to said drama. Can't be everything to everyone, or even everything to one person.
I really do wish sometimes I could just wildly go around flipping out on people and being surprised when they don't want to talk. I don't know how people in life function like that, irrationality FTW.
Ohhhh well... it's Saturday night in a city i'm still learning, and I think it may be time to prowl around soon... hope everyone else is having a good one.
p.s. I got my secret clearance finalized this week! I'm stoked about THAT one to be sure.
it's frustrating
Hey there's a big sg party on sat. heres the flier
here
i want to go but i havnt been hanging out on this site much so i dont know anybody anymore