I ma becoming the worst blogger ever. I am so lazy. Of course, my life is shite at the moment so I dont really feel like it.
My ex boyfriend who Im still kind of in love with has decided to find someone else, and apparantly she is so LOVELY| and so NICE and so WONDERFUL and so PRETTY and im like I DONT WANT TO KNOW. even though i screwed someone else after we broke up, my heart belonged to him and up til 2 days ago he was telling me oh how much he loved me, oh how much he wanted to get back with me.... now its all SHE'S SO NIIIICE, and i odnt GIVE A FUCK. well clearly i do, im pretty cut up about it but i have to pretend. I just want to scream and cry and shout and cut myself up....fuck promises, what do they mean anyway, he broke enough of them to me.
apart from that, i collapsed the other day and have been feeling so tired and my joints ache and my head hurts and im sick and the fucking list goes on, so im having all sorts of tests done right now and i dont really have the energy to do anything. adding the stress that ex just brought into my life, well arnt i just SUPER FUCKING PEACHY KEEN!
Im so sick of people having power over me and my feelings.
Sometimes i just want to end it all, maybe it would be worth it to see whats on the other side..
my head just feels well and truly fucked at the moment and i guess i could use as much looking after as possible.
Anyhoo...speak soon oh great computer in the sky that links me to SG!
My ex boyfriend who Im still kind of in love with has decided to find someone else, and apparantly she is so LOVELY| and so NICE and so WONDERFUL and so PRETTY and im like I DONT WANT TO KNOW. even though i screwed someone else after we broke up, my heart belonged to him and up til 2 days ago he was telling me oh how much he loved me, oh how much he wanted to get back with me.... now its all SHE'S SO NIIIICE, and i odnt GIVE A FUCK. well clearly i do, im pretty cut up about it but i have to pretend. I just want to scream and cry and shout and cut myself up....fuck promises, what do they mean anyway, he broke enough of them to me.
apart from that, i collapsed the other day and have been feeling so tired and my joints ache and my head hurts and im sick and the fucking list goes on, so im having all sorts of tests done right now and i dont really have the energy to do anything. adding the stress that ex just brought into my life, well arnt i just SUPER FUCKING PEACHY KEEN!
Im so sick of people having power over me and my feelings.
Sometimes i just want to end it all, maybe it would be worth it to see whats on the other side..
my head just feels well and truly fucked at the moment and i guess i could use as much looking after as possible.
Anyhoo...speak soon oh great computer in the sky that links me to SG!