corabelle

i'm not sure if things have really been resolved. after explaining to my closest housemate how concerned i am and that i don't want to have to move out, he agreed that something needs to be done. he didn't want to jump to evicting him, so we set some house rules that will basically force him to get a job. we created courtesy fees and late charges for when he doesn't pay bills and we have to pay them for him and blah blah blah. if he doesn't abide by them, then he is hit with eviction. we expressed our concerns to him about his alcohol problems and how they directly affect us. we concluded that most if not all of his problems will fade if he simply gets a fucking job. he's actually started looking and i haven't yet seen him drunk since the night of the pissing. i'm not convinced, but i hope he will prove me wrong. if it happens, i am prepared to pack my shit and move out.

my mother learned today about my father filing for a divorce. she hasn't been served yet, but that will be very soon. she doesn't want to accept that it needs to happen. i think shes very afraid of living alone and the feeling of having nobody. shes so depressed right now that she doesn't call anybody or go out, so living with other people is the only way for her to know she's alive and that the world hasn't forgotten about her. i just want the both of them to be happy again. i have this horrible torn feeling because things here are going so well, i'm really happy and am doing things that i never though i'd be doing, and on the other hand the two people who created me are so miserable. i'm not letting it get me down, i just hope that someday the can be happy in their own way, having their own lives.