connielingus

"I had the blues cause I had no shoes, then on the street I met a man with no feet."

My trainer at work gives us thoughts for the day every morning, and I believe I'm the only person who takes notice. I'm sentinmental like that, a simple statement can make or break my day. Today's quote made me check myself hard.
I've been having insane mood swings for a few weeks, now. Letting things wear me down, focusing on what makes me unhappy, rather than what I love about my life.

I got myself caught up in another useless routine & paid way too much attention to things I shouldn't have. When I've come to the point that I embarass and disappoint myself daily is when I know I need to reel it in.

This happens to me every time Dimo & I are apart for a long period of time. I'm pretty much lost without him, apparently I'm not programmed for self sufficiency. I try to fill my alone time with escapes, ways to keep my mind off of his absence, but never seem to do this in a healthy way. I completely let myself go, mind body & spirit, every time.

Time to find a happy medium is all. Time to stop being a whiney little brat & start being the force to be reckoned with I damn well know I am. Strength, dammit!!

Be well to yourselves, my friends, never forget that you have the power to change your own life for the better. And that loving yourself is what makes the rest of the world love you, not the other way around. ♥

Self help rant, ftw. ♥