connielingus

Thanks for all the well wishes, my dears. I really do love you guys.

Today is not shaping up to be so hot. I was woken early this morning by my brother and mother screaming at the top of their lungs. I hate when they fight, I always want to get involved, but my brother scares me sometimes. He's got Jekyll & Hyde syndrome - when he's normal, he's the chillest, most loving kid. When he gets frustrated (over the littlest stupid things), he's a maniac, he slams things and breaks shit. I don't know him when he's angry, and I don't know how to react to him.
I certainly don't like to hear him tell my mother to STFU, though. This made my blood boil, this morning.

Then I get my daily dose of Dimo, who is unhappy because his precious car (the TRUE love of his life) is making a strange noise again. I'm just tired of hearing it. I feel like saying "So fucking what, there are more important things than your show-offmobile".
You know, I do NOTHING, I sit in my house day in day out, I watch movies, play videogames, and hang on SG. Go to work, then start the process over. This is not a very stimulating lifestyle after a while, but why do I do it? To save money, to not get sidetracked, to get my ass the hell outta dodge, to be with HIM. And all he seems to worry about is his car. Christ.

I understand, it's his toy, his only pleasure. I just need him to give it a rest and concentrate on what's most important. We need money, like yesterday, not needless worry about a frivolous souped up shopping cart handled vehicle.

Now, I'm in a funk. I'll be alright, none of this is serious. Just puts my mind on tilt.

A few of you have been my saving grace, this week, keeping me smiling. SG is my new favorite escape from reality. I'm grateful for my friends, and I smother you with kisses in thanks. Tinyhobo & sia are on the top of my gratitude list, you guys are so amazing.

Oh, I have SOME good news.......My adorable little grandmother stopped over to say hi a few days ago, and her hair is growing back!! She's done with the chemo, still doing radiation, but her overall health and well being seem to be improving. And seeing her with hair makes my heart soar. It killed her to lose it, she wouldn't leave the house, she was ashamed of her fuzzy lil head.

And, keeping on the family tip, my lil sister is doing a photo shoot with Audrey K and possibly Zui Suicide, today. Freakin gorgeous brat. How jealous am I? Hopefully she'll give big sis a few prints to post and show off.

Weekend's almost here. Anybody doing anything fun and exciting? Can I live vicariously through you?

Smooch

EDIT: I've been getting a few friends requests, lately. I am anti-lurker friends, I have certain things marked for friends only that I really only care to share with people I know. If you've never spoken to or interacted with me, I'll probably say no. Umm....talk to me, I don't bite. That is all.

EDIT #2 - OMG, it's finally official, I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!! Best mail day EVER!