comaboy

I really can't decide if I sholuld go home early or just push through and stay. I've never in my life been in so much pain that I am right now. The painkillers take the edge off but not all of it. But if I go home I have to face reality and the shit back home. I'm scheduled for surgery the 4th of april and that will not change weather I go home or not

I just want something to go smooth and as planned sometime. I needed a break from home but got pain and suffering instead. I'm just so sick and tired of it all.