clef462

have you ever had a taste of bliss?
the feeling of ever happiness, with knowledge that everything was perfect
her touch, her smell, the way she inveloped your mind, and was all you ever

thought about
and you knew that the feeling was there with her as well
the two of you wrapped around eachothers fingers like a band
and cradling each others hearts like the muscles ment to support it.
you were weaved into eachother so tightly that the mere absence of one hurt the

other
wonderful wasn't it?
now imagine it being all yanked away, like candy from a baby
the support around your hearts, gone
the presence of the other no longer there as it used to be.
she's with another, one that couldn't even possible begin to feel for her the way

you did
she wanted to remain friends, keep you around to feel better about herself
you abliged, and everytime you saw them together you hated yourself
wondered what it was that you did wrong to push her away
the bands are still there, around your fingers
you two would fight for the others best interest
but when you wanted to stand up to him for her best interest, she pushed you away
telling you it was none of your business
had enough yet?
so you walked away
knowing that if you stuck around her, you would never be able to get over her
fighting tooth and nail, she tried to keep you there.
still you walked away, tired of hurting, tired of crying yourself to sleep at night
constantly asking yourself why? why did it all happen?
the rings still there, reminding eternally of what was
you still care for her, but walked away to try to get over it
she moved on, why couldn't you?
she thinks you turned your back on her, never to be her friend
if only she truely knew how much she was wrong,
you would die for her if you had to, you would offer up your life for her better
did she ever realize this?
you still check on her everyday, sometimes twice or three times
just to see if she's alright. reading her daily journal of thoughts and life
in this you read that she is now trying to say that you was nothing more than a

meaningless sex toy for her.
to be used and tossed aside, only to find a new one to play with...
what's the truth? why did she truely leave you?
is she trying to make an alternate past to make her look good and you bad?
trying to make you the enemy here? so to justify the actions taken...
thinking back on it, you wondered..
why did this ever happen? why'd she pick you and you her?
why does it hurt both sides soo much to the point of fighting?
you can't even talk to her now without words of anger and hate being brought up
she hurts you, because you loved her beyond the stars..
if only she knew then how you felt..
if only you knew what she did..
would it all be better the second time around?
why bother thinking about that, there will be no second time in her eyes
........thoughts..
sometimes you wonder why it ever happened
sometimes you wonder why it ever started
sometimes you wonder why it ever ended
sometimes.. you just wonder..
sometimes you wish it never would have started..
then you think and realize that during that time, you had something that most

people never see in their entire lives. why would you have given that up?
the rings still remain, ever reminding