clef462

a letter to myself



i hate it when i'm like this..grrr.... i hate being contained by something other than my own concience...i need to fucking get out of here, i'm literally going mind fuck crazy inside, and suicide haunts my every other thought... i can't stand it anymore...i have a headache, my stomache is turning in knots, all i want to do is go to sleep and go to my happy dream land, and never wake up...you would have been better to have reported my suicidal tendacies when you found out about them... along with everything else... you would have saved me more than you think you have helped... lol.. soo many times, did you just sweep shit that i was going through under the rug.. just kinda kept me in a stasis of being, where i just went along with shit, not really caring... being drug along by leashes, this wolf was beaten down spiritually... and now sits in his pen with a glazed look in his eyes of what was.... faded memories of the past, lingering... taunting tempting.. i've been tamed... i hope that the world is happy now..