ck

::sigh::

listening to jack johnson and watching my favorite baseball team play. yes, relaxing.

so, i went to the dr. for a follow-up last thursday. he gave some pills to take for two weeks, then i have to see him again for tests after the two weeks is up.
you know, this really fucking sucks. the anxiety! shove it up your ass!!!! i just really hate this helpless feeling. i almost had a panic attack today because of all of this bullshit, but i fought it off...thankfully.

so now i have to wait for another two+ weeks for some real answers.

i think i'm going to go out for a few drinks. i really need to get out of the house before i go fucking berserk.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

but a short time is a long time when your mind just won't let it go