so,
lunch for the past four days has consisted of this "soup" i make.
it's totally lame because i don't really have anything to do with it besides opening packages and stirring (mmm, kindof reminds me of working for la madeleine) but i think it's good enough.
i found these vegan bullion cubes and so i dissolve one according to the directions and then dump...
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lunch for the past four days has consisted of this "soup" i make.
it's totally lame because i don't really have anything to do with it besides opening packages and stirring (mmm, kindof reminds me of working for la madeleine) but i think it's good enough.
i found these vegan bullion cubes and so i dissolve one according to the directions and then dump...
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masaba:
happy thursday to you too....i love le madeline!
dayglow:
Man, I did screw up that quote. I was kinda out of it when I wrote that jounal. Speaking of being out of it, I looked for the party favor we talked about, and I have just a tiny bit left over. I'll try to remember to bring it tomorow. See u soon.
i was SOOOOO super naive to think that my last week here would be smooth sailing...
[...]
and as he walks out of my office, he turns around in the doorway and says, grinning, "so, good morning"
and i smile sarcastically, pausing from my sip of tea, and return the greeting facetiously.
today will be a good day
except that tears in the office...
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[...]
and as he walks out of my office, he turns around in the doorway and says, grinning, "so, good morning"
and i smile sarcastically, pausing from my sip of tea, and return the greeting facetiously.
today will be a good day
except that tears in the office...
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dayglow:
Darn it! I hope you dont forget them on Friday. I had a good time last night, blue moon/cookies/ and the lake are a great combo. And thankyou for helping me figure out my love "issues". As I left your place, I had a totally relieving thought come to my head, which was: you have two options-you either choose the man you were maddly in love with and hope that things work out, or you stay with the other and hope that you fall madly in love. (actually, 3 options, I could just totally dump both of them) It's kinda paradoxical, in the way that it's such a complicated, yet simple choice.
dayglow:
check the thread
Icono said, "I might swing by if your still up at 2am, so save an orifice for me"#@*!!@#*&*!!
Should we be insulted by that, bec I believe I am???
Icono said, "I might swing by if your still up at 2am, so save an orifice for me"#@*!!@#*&*!!
Should we be insulted by that, bec I believe I am???
i don't really care if it makes me lame,
but george michael's new song is rad.
~!~
"Girly-girl...
I just don't know what to say [...] maybe stress has something to do with it? I'd like to say I'm not stressed, that I'm enjoying my time off... but of course the inside of the head has different ideas compared to what you THINK you...
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but george michael's new song is rad.
~!~
"Girly-girl...
I just don't know what to say [...] maybe stress has something to do with it? I'd like to say I'm not stressed, that I'm enjoying my time off... but of course the inside of the head has different ideas compared to what you THINK you...
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vim:
The greater danger for man lies not in setting our aim too high and falling short; but in setting our aim too low, and achieving our mark.
-Michelangelo Buonarroti
-Michelangelo Buonarroti
topbanana66:
Your poetry is astounding and inspiring...To do what we want to do involves a lot of struggle, I'm sure you will get to a certain level of happiness soon!
it's like avoiding a favorite treat.
i analogized to a girl friend/coworker this morning about it...
she's having trouble in her situation.
i told her "it's like denying ourselves cookies or something. and when we finally do get them, they will a) seemingly taste better and b) be less likely to do any damage."
last night i did a mock-pack.
i have room left in...
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i analogized to a girl friend/coworker this morning about it...
she's having trouble in her situation.
i told her "it's like denying ourselves cookies or something. and when we finally do get them, they will a) seemingly taste better and b) be less likely to do any damage."
last night i did a mock-pack.
i have room left in...
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the_baron:
it's so close now...
Sunday? huh?
Well anyways, yes, that sounds good, friendly's together, cause then we can try lots of flavors, I'll probably have 2 or 3 myself
7:00 okay? it's good right? I mean, I'll be there earlier making ice cream and stuff. you can come visit me, and watch the ice cream as it's being made.
it's so close now...
Sunday? huh?
Well anyways, yes, that sounds good, friendly's together, cause then we can try lots of flavors, I'll probably have 2 or 3 myself
7:00 okay? it's good right? I mean, I'll be there earlier making ice cream and stuff. you can come visit me, and watch the ice cream as it's being made.
ella_1:
Ive tried that. you need an agent and they tend to be ripoff merchants.
Wuggly is a friend of mine, her account expired.
Wuggly is a friend of mine, her account expired.
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topbanana66:
Today was a good day... 
~ tomorrow = beach ~
'Can I see your ID miss'
Have you had Gelato? Say like Green Tea or Melon...
~ tomorrow = beach ~
'Can I see your ID miss'
Have you had Gelato? Say like Green Tea or Melon...
zephyra:
hangover makeup is so funny. To me at least.
See you on Friday for your fried pickles and ice cream party.
See you on Friday for your fried pickles and ice cream party.
an entry entirely ice-cream
picking favorites is really very difficult.
and it's strange, because now that i think of it,
my most favorite favorite flavors are pink... and i've only recently acquired a real appreciation of the color, aesthetically speaking.
but (if i have to rate them - sorted in order first by color and then by preference)
there's cherry-vanilla (with real cherries in it,...
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picking favorites is really very difficult.
and it's strange, because now that i think of it,
my most favorite favorite flavors are pink... and i've only recently acquired a real appreciation of the color, aesthetically speaking.
but (if i have to rate them - sorted in order first by color and then by preference)
there's cherry-vanilla (with real cherries in it,...
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porcelainheart:
hi there, thanks for the birthday greetings.
the_baron:
well you're just not making this very easy at all are you?
Fresh Cherry, with vanilla?
I think I can do that!
I don't think cherry pistacio would be very good... maybe cherry pecan, but you didn't list pecans!
Heathen!!! YOU MUST LOVE THE PECAN!!!
What about strawberry banana?
And do you want black cherries, or red cherries.. or what about those really good ranier cherries they have at whole foods???
hmm... nothing really off the wall or wacko for flavors though.... We'll have to see what we can do about that...
oh yeah... when you get to New York, go to Friendly's, I've been told it's really good (they have ice cream) and you have to have a flavor called butter crunch, it's like butter brickle... I'm already salivating just thinking about it!!!
Oh yeah, just wanted to say, it's not entirely ice cream either
Love ya darling, see ya friday!!!
Fresh Cherry, with vanilla?
I think I can do that!
I don't think cherry pistacio would be very good... maybe cherry pecan, but you didn't list pecans!
Heathen!!! YOU MUST LOVE THE PECAN!!!
What about strawberry banana?
And do you want black cherries, or red cherries.. or what about those really good ranier cherries they have at whole foods???
hmm... nothing really off the wall or wacko for flavors though.... We'll have to see what we can do about that...
oh yeah... when you get to New York, go to Friendly's, I've been told it's really good (they have ice cream) and you have to have a flavor called butter crunch, it's like butter brickle... I'm already salivating just thinking about it!!!
Oh yeah, just wanted to say, it's not entirely ice cream either
Love ya darling, see ya friday!!!
saturday morning.
i'm in the office.
last night i helped my mom with some paperwork, did some personal paperwork, sorted through a couple more boxes, and put the old man to work after mom told me he needed something to do. but i think i'm missing something so i'll go to the storage facility again today and seek.
we'll clear out space for my brother's...
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i'm in the office.
last night i helped my mom with some paperwork, did some personal paperwork, sorted through a couple more boxes, and put the old man to work after mom told me he needed something to do. but i think i'm missing something so i'll go to the storage facility again today and seek.
we'll clear out space for my brother's...
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citrus:
kayce sent me a note from the other forum and i want to put it here...
she's good.
"Girl, girl... what on earth are you doing in the office? Less than two weeks now-- I'm so thrilled for you.
I'm so wary of nailing myself down to a specific religion. We've talked about this before and I think we feel pretty much the same way.
But the needing something for the kids, wanting to have it all covered... it's something I would like as well and just haven't come to term with how to impart a strong spirituality while keeping religion in an open mind and more world-wide view. Something I didn't have growing up, something that it's important and a necessary anchor for a kid trying to make sense of an entire world.
Hugs and kisses..."
i'm glad she can relate.
and it's only ever partially what it's about.
part of me feels comfortable in judaism, perhaps because of my familiarity with some of the same book ... but i just haven't known christianity to be so structured.
it's like the jewish culture becomes such an integral part of the being because it's influential so early.
but i see certain other examples and i just want to get my feet more wet. i wonder if i convert using orthodox measures, will i still be free to practice my other reaches with spirituality or will i be obligated to live the orthodox lifestyle...
i'll ask the rabbi.
i'm so glad i will have connections.
doors and windows. fresh air.
and here i am, insecure, because when i seek to speak with an orthodox rabbi, (which is partially why i'm more comfortable approaching a reform/traditional one first) and my desire to convert is examined, my reasoning may seem superficial...
how do you explain that it just makes sense? how do you tell them that with the values you have and the difference between what you were raised around and what you truly believe, the structure and the stronghold, just seems right?
how do you explain that, sure, you've met some fabulous jews and they're inspiration, or that in your search through many practices, it all just boils down to the same ONE.
here i am and i have to decide. there's only so much time and lots of life means to be steady. in so many years from now, i will be leading other little bodies into and through part of this world and i will have so many questions myself - how will i be able to answer all their little questions?
i want to encourage them to find for themselves but to ensure them they have ample resources... i thank my mother for always telling me "look it up",
but there will still have to be rules... there have to be good reasons for doing something a certain way. i really DON'T want to respond with "because i said so."
all the cliche i try to make sense of... they're developed after so long noticing the same patterns.
i could ramble on and on and on.
it feels right. keep going.
i can still change my mind.
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she's good.
"Girl, girl... what on earth are you doing in the office? Less than two weeks now-- I'm so thrilled for you.
I'm so wary of nailing myself down to a specific religion. We've talked about this before and I think we feel pretty much the same way.
But the needing something for the kids, wanting to have it all covered... it's something I would like as well and just haven't come to term with how to impart a strong spirituality while keeping religion in an open mind and more world-wide view. Something I didn't have growing up, something that it's important and a necessary anchor for a kid trying to make sense of an entire world.
Hugs and kisses...
"
i'm glad she can relate.
and it's only ever partially what it's about.
part of me feels comfortable in judaism, perhaps because of my familiarity with some of the same book ... but i just haven't known christianity to be so structured.
it's like the jewish culture becomes such an integral part of the being because it's influential so early.
but i see certain other examples and i just want to get my feet more wet. i wonder if i convert using orthodox measures, will i still be free to practice my other reaches with spirituality or will i be obligated to live the orthodox lifestyle...
i'll ask the rabbi.
i'm so glad i will have connections.
doors and windows. fresh air.
and here i am, insecure, because when i seek to speak with an orthodox rabbi, (which is partially why i'm more comfortable approaching a reform/traditional one first) and my desire to convert is examined, my reasoning may seem superficial...
how do you explain that it just makes sense? how do you tell them that with the values you have and the difference between what you were raised around and what you truly believe, the structure and the stronghold, just seems right?
how do you explain that, sure, you've met some fabulous jews and they're inspiration, or that in your search through many practices, it all just boils down to the same ONE.
here i am and i have to decide. there's only so much time and lots of life means to be steady. in so many years from now, i will be leading other little bodies into and through part of this world and i will have so many questions myself - how will i be able to answer all their little questions?
i want to encourage them to find for themselves but to ensure them they have ample resources... i thank my mother for always telling me "look it up",
but there will still have to be rules... there have to be good reasons for doing something a certain way. i really DON'T want to respond with "because i said so."
all the cliche i try to make sense of... they're developed after so long noticing the same patterns.
i could ramble on and on and on.
it feels right. keep going.
i can still change my mind.
[Edited on Jul 10, 2004 11:26AM]
citrus:
it's also like,
what's the point of converting, though, if i don't actually practice well enough to be that good example for my children.
but see, i also want to be an example of open mind.
it's all really very confusing.
i guess maybe i don't understand what difference it makes.
i mean, it makes sense... just all the gray in between - it's about where i think i fit
man,
i could sure go for a nap.
too bad i've got shit all over the floor in there.
i guess i just wish i'd been born that way at this point, because i don't feel like converting will offer me all the advantage of learning as a child myself. as i asked amanda, why can't I have a bat mitzvah?
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what's the point of converting, though, if i don't actually practice well enough to be that good example for my children.
but see, i also want to be an example of open mind.
it's all really very confusing.
i guess maybe i don't understand what difference it makes.
i mean, it makes sense... just all the gray in between - it's about where i think i fit
man,
i could sure go for a nap.
too bad i've got shit all over the floor in there.
i guess i just wish i'd been born that way at this point, because i don't feel like converting will offer me all the advantage of learning as a child myself. as i asked amanda, why can't I have a bat mitzvah?
[Edited on Jul 11, 2004 8:50AM]
living on bottled water with caffienated tea,
a sack of whole foods' trail mix,
vitamins that give me neon-yellow pee,
and a much-too-long to-do list.
woooo.
can't i just BLEED ALREADY!
geeesh.
the pre is worse the the during.
i want to throw things and be angry and then i want to curl up in someone's lap and be sweet.
crikey.
and so i just...
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a sack of whole foods' trail mix,
vitamins that give me neon-yellow pee,
and a much-too-long to-do list.
woooo.
can't i just BLEED ALREADY!
geeesh.
the pre is worse the the during.
i want to throw things and be angry and then i want to curl up in someone's lap and be sweet.
crikey.
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the_baron:
Goodbye party for Citrus! or ? or both?
I'm making fried pickles and ice cream!!!
what's your favorite ice cream?
or 
?
It's sad... so close... I'm gonna miss you... need to get a goodbye present, so you can remember me all the way away in New York!!!
or ? or both?
I'm making fried pickles and ice cream!!!
what's your favorite ice cream?
or ?
It's sad... so close... I'm gonna miss you... need to get a goodbye present, so you can remember me all the way away in New York!!!
back and forth
up and down
around and around
weeeeeee !
so, like,
i was looking for something,
and i kept telling myself, okay citrus, just wait a few minutes, work on something else, and come back to that...
and then i'd finish something up and go back to looking for it... and i'd get frustrated so i'd go guzzle a glass of water (speaking...
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up and down
around and around
weeeeeee !
so, like,
i was looking for something,
and i kept telling myself, okay citrus, just wait a few minutes, work on something else, and come back to that...
and then i'd finish something up and go back to looking for it... and i'd get frustrated so i'd go guzzle a glass of water (speaking...
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donaldbrown:
Focus.
music like heartbreak
sometimes we stay awake so tomorrow never comes.
now: it is the most humbling, perfect moment.
:insert sigh:
i read somewhere that a sigh is for those who suffer silently,
because there are no words to suit.
a coworker brought me this huge cucumber today from his neighbor's garden.
now, i like cucumbers, and usually i pick them kindof small because it's...
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freyja__:
i find that i sigh a lot.
funny, tho.. i'm not really the silent suffering type.
i do find myself saying less and less as i get older
but its mostly self-preservation than lack of words.
*sigh*
funny, tho.. i'm not really the silent suffering type.
i do find myself saying less and less as i get older
but its mostly self-preservation than lack of words.
*sigh*
dayglow:
Hey there sweetie. How are you? So, maybe youv'e already heard that we want to give you a going away party. But the days are really creeping up on us, huh? If we could throw things together by next weekend (July 16/17th), would you be interested?