citrus

back and forth
up and down
around and around

weeeeeee !






so, like,
i was looking for something,
and i kept telling myself, okay citrus, just wait a few minutes, work on something else, and come back to that...
and then i'd finish something up and go back to looking for it... and i'd get frustrated so i'd go guzzle a glass of water (speaking of which)
and then i'd get distracted by one thing or person or another and i'd come back in here, looking for that first it...
and i just found it. it was on my desk the whole time.
what a diggin' dork.

vimian scolds me for using the F word so much. but he's absolutely right.
you think in ten years i can have it nixxed from my vocabulary completely?
we're gonna try it out. i'm happy to have friends who help me be who i want to be by reminding me what i want when i'm in a tizzy and then not being too easy on me. cuz i can handle it.
and he still nubs me too.

of course, i love the people who are so super sweet, too.
mmm mmmmm mmm

my mom is much the same way.
as much as i can say that my "not good enough" syndrome is related to her high expectations and the way she berated me as a child, her outward un-forgiveness, any amount of my success can be considered fueled by such motivation.
when so many people around me are excited and proud of this move i'm making, the chance i'm taking, she is pragmatic and harsh - she thinks i'm ridiculous and is "freaking out" (her words).

whatever.
i'm just using this expression as an excuse not to get back to that stuff i found on my desk.

L8Rz






one of the best things for pms is organic swiss dark chocolate with almonds.
yeah
and english breakfast tea.

because i said so.
(and that's how i feel this very moment -
but as is the only predictability of pms,
my feelings will probably change in a few minutes)




man i have GOT to go to bed at a reasonable hour tonight.
sheesh


oh yeah!
and swimmin'!!!!!