citrus

i think i'll go see a movie or something after therapy tonight


although, i DOOO have lots else i could be doing.


update kopper style
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i just turned in my notice.
my c.f.o. says that she thinks it's super exciting and that she's proud of me for taking the opportunity and that she loves me and to keep in touch

i was shaking.
and i'm still shaking.

but i've been spinning for months now.
everything is gonna be alright.

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dreams

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my mind makes so many connections from one thing to another.
it's natural.
i imagine the synapses firing sometimes during interaction, i wonder what it's doing without my immediate cognizance, that computer of mine.

i think about ways we're programmed and then i discuss with a friend the patterns we grow habituated to...
my thoughts revolved for several hours around opportunity and choice and that elusive, pristine awareness...

aimee mann echos in the background whether i'm in front of the speakers or longing to relieve that repetition...
it's not going to stop - wise up

suddenly, as i've finally stepped away from the milling,
that awareness bounces back and i'm "aha" again.

do what you're gonna do.

i found a letter mom wrote me many moons ago. she wondered about consistency and how it affects a person's success.
i wonder if these patterns we speak of can be considered conducive to progress... breaking them feels as though it would be.

but that elusiveness,
that pristina,
necessary in order to get anywhere...

back again to what's most important.


today i submit my letter of resignation.
and i will be very busy.

time to drive.