Three things have been consistent in my life. My weight struggles, love for music and love for movies.
Music. what can I say? I have posted this photo before this was just the base in what became a huge list of what I enjoy in music. Little did I know for the next 2 yeas I was gong to go to 150+ shows a year and be taking pictures and interviews of bands from local to major level. Some of my best times came from these two year. I was running a small site called Underground-Connection. It was around the same time other bigger music sites were popping up. I was just focusing on the smaller bands and local acts mostly. I had no taste for bands that already made a name. I wanted to taste something new, fresh to my ears. Then entered Metal and hardcore music. It started on the local level with bands like Bleed the Filth, Puppet, Skipline, Chimera, Mushroomhead. At the same time my buddy was introducing me to Death metal, Doom metal , Black metal and all the 16 sub genres there was at the time. My focus was on everything that was hardcore. From Autumn to Ashes, 18 visions, Poison the well, Norma Jean, The Chariot...etc Needless to say my taste in music kept on growing and has never stopped. Current its anything from Deftones ( which is my all time favorite band ) to Whitechapel , Lorna Shore, and even bands like CHVRCHES.
Movies. all I can do is post pictures. Believe it or not I still ask for things to watch because I am not always in the mood to watch something I have. Even if I haven't seen it yet. I pretty much like everything. Dramas use to run my life in my 20's. currently its horror movies.
My weight.
Even as I post this I struggle with my weight. I have never felt confutable in my own skin. I was bullied as a kid for being fat. Even as an adult people calling me " big guy" was always a low hit to my already rock bottom self-esteem. Last year I had a major loss in my family and I ended up gaining 50 pounds I am now about 260. the most I ever weight was 350. I was wearing x5 clothing. As I am typing this I am trying my best to get back to 170. Its going slow and not well but I know I will get there. This has been my life since I was a kid. Depression really makes me gain weight. Here is some pictures from through out the years. first one is from a year ago .
well there is a just a little bit more about me.
have a great evening!
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