chryssi

Thanks for the advice. I always need to know different sides.

Chryssi

thanks for the lovely message mate

I hope the holiday goes good

On the pictures thing, just take loads of them and there are bound to be a few good shots

Keep well, send you some love

Oh mate my heart goes out to you on both levels, your Aunt and recovering city.

It was so disgusting at the time to see how people were treated.

Best of luchk to your aunty.

Take Care

And i will pass on the message

Your aunt will be in my thoughts tomorrow, I sincerely hope all goes well. I feel for you & your family, I'm ashamed to say it, but I didnt realize people were still hurting so badly from the disaster. That's a sin & nothing less. I don't understand how this govt. spends our tax dollars rebuilding foreign countries when we have people in such dire straights at home. It never ceases to amaze me. It's very sad.

Awesome!

Quilts and do-it-yourself quilts online... what a great idea! I'm looking forward to seeing your work.

Yep. Aint it the truth. I hope I've been able to help in some way. You're helping me learn about myself as well.

I look back on where I was 4 or 5 years ago, and I see how blessed I am to have such a wonderful life.

I deserve it, and so do you.


Y'all have fun re-doing the bathroom. See ya when ya get back.

b.

How wonderful & exciting, you should be proud of yourself. It really must feel great to be your own boss. I wish you the best of luck & much success. And good luck with the bathroom too, a girls gotta have a pretty bathroom. xoxo

Thanks for the encouragement. I really did need i.
I am just now reading a book that echoed everything you just said.
Hopefully in time I can conquer the chaos in my head
and finally let out the creative animal inside.

Book is "When things Fall Apart Heart Advice for Difficult Times"
author Pema Chodren

Glad my poem meant something to you

Listen to Billy, he makes good sense.

Glad the uncle situation is finally having a better resolution. it was very brave of you to confront him in the first place. This sort of thing festers and is hardly dealt with. So well done.

I think these feelings you have for this other guy are complicated. My initial reaction is to say the feelings are false. Perhaps born of a feeling of being trapped. Maybe he represents freedom to you?

Or perhaps you recognise something in him, maybe from a past life. Who knows?

I`d like to hear more about that situation if you are willing.

Anyway keep well and thanks for the message

You are such a strong woman. Being able to forgive someone who has caused you so much pain, I applaud you. Forgiveness allows us to heal & regain the energy that we waste on hate & resentment. I really can't say anything more than what Billyfivecrows has said. Good luck on your journey into finding out who you are.

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I send you all my love & warm wishes xoxo

That is the first time someone has told me that I was strong. I never pictured myself that way. Maybe now with out the pain and anger and resentment I can find out how strong i really am. And believe it. As so as I forgave him it was like a great void inside had been filled. I feel like I am almost healed. Just a few problems left that have come from the abuse. I really enjoy knowing that their are people you care. Thank you so much, b. and Rowan.

feeling of freedom
renewed with hope
life can again be lived
without hurt and doubt

renewal of faith
and belief in oneself
the feeling of wholeness
and the acceptence of onself

these are the things that
forgiveness can bring

From The Waste Land by T. S. Eliot
(In counterpoint to TS elliot...)

The third one is Azariel (Who burns my mind)
Making my fleeting flights of sanity
Turn into dust , guiding me (to the point of prophecy)
Beckoning me back To where I desperately want (to be)
And sending them back (to where they came)