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chryssi

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I just found out yesterday that my grandmother's lukemia has turned into acute lukemia.The lukemia she had before wasn't that dangerous, but this id the rea thing. I am afraid that she won't make it through the chemo. The last chemo she had was very low dosage, and she barely could stand that. Noe the chemo will be stronger and i just don't know if she can take it. After the hurricane she moved and since then sha has not received the best care. But she is hard headed and refuses to come back to Louisiana.

So much has been lifted of my shoulders since i spoke to my uncle about the abuse he did to me as a child. He was pretty young hiself and I don't really think he remembered to much about it. Until I brought it up. But that was something that I had to do for myself, even though the only ones who supported me was my husband and my sister. Which is strange because we have never been close. My parents didi nor=t even want me to do anything about it because it has been a family secret for 30 years. But know I thinkwe can be closer to each other then ever before because I have forgiven him and that got rid of all the hurt, anger, and resetment that I have held on to. Now I can grow and finally become who I am supposed to be. Whoever that is.

I enjoy being able to post my feelings om here. It really feels liberating, and I know some of the girls must have suffered the same things. If anyone wants to or needs to talk about anything please feel free to contact me.

chryssi
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rowanmayfair:
You are such a strong woman. Being able to forgive someone who has caused you so much pain, I applaud you. Forgiveness allows us to heal & regain the energy that we waste on hate & resentment. I really can't say anything more than what Billyfivecrows has said. Good luck on your journey into finding out who you are.

I'm so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I send you all my love & warm wishes xoxo
Jul 21, 2006
chryssi:
That is the first time someone has told me that I was strong. I never pictured myself that way. Maybe now with out the pain and anger and resentment I can find out how strong i really am. And believe it. As so as I forgave him it was like a great void inside had been filled. I feel like I am almost healed. Just a few problems left that have come from the abuse. I really enjoy knowing that their are people you care. Thank you so much, b. and Rowan.
Jul 21, 2006

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