Note: To those of you just arriving...I had a big ass epiphony Late Saturday Night/Early Sunday Morning. It was a long, three hour walk. Look at the last bunch of journals if you want to read about it. K? K.
The Three Hour Walk: Hour 3:
It was getting kind of chilly. I knew I wasn't done. The end of the trail wasn't here yet....
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The Three Hour Walk: Hour 3:
It was getting kind of chilly. I knew I wasn't done. The end of the trail wasn't here yet....
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The Three Hour Walk: Hour 2
OK, I guess it does sound more like a fiction story than it does a raw recount of events... I wish I had a tape recorder or something while I was walking.
oh well. It's taking me a while to type down all the things I thought about, and the things I felt. It's harder than I imagined, to...
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OK, I guess it does sound more like a fiction story than it does a raw recount of events... I wish I had a tape recorder or something while I was walking.
oh well. It's taking me a while to type down all the things I thought about, and the things I felt. It's harder than I imagined, to... Read More
riply:
Wow, you went thorugh a lot of "selfzamination" in 3 hours - *HUGS YOU* ^.^ Like I said before - this is good - good for you to realise that your the one that needed to step back and say "hey" maybe it isn't other people, maybe it's me that theres something wrong with. Can't wait for the conclusion sweetie.
--> You asked about the movie [FEAR] It's a 1996 film featuring Mark Wahlberg, Reese Witherspoon and Alyssa Milano - He's all psycho and sexy and killy ^.^ umm yeah . . hehe later.
PS ~ I'm adding you as a friend! YAY! *kiss*
[Edited on Aug 25, 2003]
--> You asked about the movie [FEAR] It's a 1996 film featuring Mark Wahlberg, Reese Witherspoon and Alyssa Milano - He's all psycho and sexy and killy ^.^ umm yeah . . hehe later.
PS ~ I'm adding you as a friend! YAY! *kiss*
[Edited on Aug 25, 2003]
The three hour walk yesterday: A big look at Life and Myself.
Last night, It started small. Very small. My Dad asked me if I was dumping my ink water (the 10% ink 90% water mixture remaining after I do ink drawing) in the upstairs sink. He asks me if, in the past, If he's told me not to rinse my ink water there. I...
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Last night, It started small. Very small. My Dad asked me if I was dumping my ink water (the 10% ink 90% water mixture remaining after I do ink drawing) in the upstairs sink. He asks me if, in the past, If he's told me not to rinse my ink water there. I...
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clara:
I read it. No comment necessary. 
riply:
Yes, it was like a short fiction story ^.^ But it is good that you ARE finding things out about yourself, asking questions you don't normally ask. There is nothing to tell you buddy - no comfort sayings - your finding out why things go the way they go and what needs to be changed. I wish I had gone on that 3 hour walk with you, maybe we coulda figured out things together *since I really need to.*
I just walked for about 3 hours. I had to figure out what was wrong.
(hit "prev" TWICE to read dilemma in last journal)
DAMIT...this is the third time...I typed out a lot of journal 15 mintues ago..then SG just put up the first two lines. I retyped as much as I could, 5 mnutes ago...and it still didn't take...
SCRATCH THAT...THIS IS THE 4TH...
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(hit "prev" TWICE to read dilemma in last journal)
DAMIT...this is the third time...I typed out a lot of journal 15 mintues ago..then SG just put up the first two lines. I retyped as much as I could, 5 mnutes ago...and it still didn't take...
SCRATCH THAT...THIS IS THE 4TH...
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riply:
*Waits till afternoon to get the whole story on paper/keyboard/whatever* ^.^ Oh and thanks for the comment on the whole retard boyfriend situation *kiss*
timothyscalliwag:
Say it as it is Chrono,....
keep it simple and to the point, being true to yourself and true to your word. Not easy when you're doin it, but if its something you feel you got to do,.... then you got to do it honestly and truthfully. Makes you a bigger and stronger person in the long run and you'll respect and like yourself a whole bunch more.
I've only two days Mead drinking left now, but i'll make sure i have a Large one for you tomorrow, if it helps !
Take care
keep it simple and to the point, being true to yourself and true to your word. Not easy when you're doin it, but if its something you feel you got to do,.... then you got to do it honestly and truthfully. Makes you a bigger and stronger person in the long run and you'll respect and like yourself a whole bunch more.
I've only two days Mead drinking left now, but i'll make sure i have a Large one for you tomorrow, if it helps !
Take care
I just walked for about 3 hours. I had to figure out what was wrong.
(hit "<prev" to read dilemma in last journal)
DAMIT...this is the third time...I typed out a lot of journal 15 mintues ago..then SG just put up the first two lines. I retyped as much as I could, 5 mnutes ago...and it still didn't take...
OK...super boiled down version.
I walked....
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(hit "<prev" to read dilemma in last journal)
DAMIT...this is the third time...I typed out a lot of journal 15 mintues ago..then SG just put up the first two lines. I retyped as much as I could, 5 mnutes ago...and it still didn't take...
OK...super boiled down version.
I walked....
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riply:
Well . . whats wrong? ^.^
Something's got to change. Not sure what. Dunno if it's a problem that's there, or a lack of soemthing...something I don't know what it is, becuase it's not there or was never there.
Fun huh? Something's wrong, something's got to be done about it, and I can't figure out what it is.
This is the kind of atmosphere where rash decisions are made. To see...
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Fun huh? Something's wrong, something's got to be done about it, and I can't figure out what it is.
This is the kind of atmosphere where rash decisions are made. To see...
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GOD DAMN IT...
No matter how hard I try...I matter what I do...I can't get to sleep earlier than 3 am, and can't wake up earlier than 10:30am.
Which will be fun, come Saturday,,,when I have to get up at 8am for my shift which starts at 9.
Whoever originally thought that working til close then opening the next morning was a GOOD idea...should be...
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No matter how hard I try...I matter what I do...I can't get to sleep earlier than 3 am, and can't wake up earlier than 10:30am.
Which will be fun, come Saturday,,,when I have to get up at 8am for my shift which starts at 9.
Whoever originally thought that working til close then opening the next morning was a GOOD idea...should be...
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bathory:
rock
clara:
No one would come. 
Nothing to say today...WEll, I have stuff to say, but it'll be boring. So instead of a boring update, I'll just post lyrics to my Song of the Moment:
"People Like Us"
In Nineteen fifty, when i was born...
Papa couldn't afford to buy us much
He said "be proud of what you are,
there's somthing special about people like us"
People Like us
Who...
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"People Like Us"
In Nineteen fifty, when i was born...
Papa couldn't afford to buy us much
He said "be proud of what you are,
there's somthing special about people like us"
People Like us
Who...
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bryn:
im the coolest talking head....EVER!
whos bday is coming up?
yours!
woohoo!
whos bday is coming up?
yours!
woohoo!
tattoosnscrews:
Yo Yo Yo. 
Oh man. such a weird day.
This morning....from the time I wake up to the tme I get in the car to drive to work...EVERYTHING that could make me late, made me late. not hearing the ALARM... forgetting where things WERE, Finding my SHOES, etc etc.
but once I got driving...everything that could make me on time, made me on time., I hit EVERY green...
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This morning....from the time I wake up to the tme I get in the car to drive to work...EVERYTHING that could make me late, made me late. not hearing the ALARM... forgetting where things WERE, Finding my SHOES, etc etc.
but once I got driving...everything that could make me on time, made me on time., I hit EVERY green...
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bryn:
yes, but you are a chill boy. we are freaks.
FREAKS, i tells ya.
as for Muffin, he found a place, and neither of us ever would move in with the other. under pain of death.
ill definitely send you the link! you MUST read my amazing article when it comes out! erm.... yes.
ps cant wait for Bike Weekend!!!!!!
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FREAKS, i tells ya.
as for Muffin, he found a place, and neither of us ever would move in with the other. under pain of death.
ill definitely send you the link! you MUST read my amazing article when it comes out! erm.... yes.
ps cant wait for Bike Weekend!!!!!!
[Edited on Aug 16, 2003]
bathory:
i know i know. *pats back*
Man. I dunno about this job.
I know I need the money to flow. I know it actually is better than my previous job.
It is a bit of a hair puller though. So much shit to juggle...Today I dropped a lot of things. With one hour to go, there were a shitload of jobs left to do.
Also, the store manager mentioned today that...
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I know I need the money to flow. I know it actually is better than my previous job.
It is a bit of a hair puller though. So much shit to juggle...Today I dropped a lot of things. With one hour to go, there were a shitload of jobs left to do.
Also, the store manager mentioned today that...
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bathory:
job. dang job. *shakes fist*
bathory:
thanks!
I don't think you sounded pretentious, rather, idealistic.
too much to yap about here.
call me [erm.... im gonna be gone. maybe next week] and ill try and talk to you about it again.
you clapped with a bird. i think i love you.
ps how are you?