chipdanger

Tonight is one of those nights where rock bottom is within sight. I've been out of work for 3 weeks and the prospect of finding work is looking pretty bleak. A person I considered really special dumped me for reasons I can't understand and probably never will. Our exchange of text messages usually ends with me feeling like I've been banging my head against a wall. The problem is I've been initating the messaging and I have to tell myself to stop it. Nothing good can come from it. I just need someone to be sweet to me. I feel really alone despite attempts from my close friends to cheer me up. I shouldn't complain, I have all my fingers and toes, but I just feel lost and like I don't belong anywhere.