GOD DAMN FUCKING DELETE BUTTON WHEN YOUR CURSER ISNT IN THE FUCKING BOX!
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My bodys fucked up and I think its trying to tell me something. I need to take this as a sign. Im only 22, I should be this messed up...
--I had a situation at work today. According to my doctor, who I called in a panic cause I thought I was having a stroke, I had Hyperventilated w/ a slight panic attack.
--I was typing a prescription and out of the blue, couldnt type correctly. The keyboard was out of focus and I couldnt make out where the keys were. Very confused....I had to help a customer and out in the isle as I grabed an item of the shelf, my hand looked odd to me, as if it wasnt my own and I felt very very funny...I walked away and my vision of my feet were odd as well.. I started talking to the Pharmacist and was unable to focus on him, my right eye was blurry and my right fingertips became numb, then my index finger and my thumb..this lasted about 10 minutes. Which is when I called my doctor..as I was talking to her I regained feeling in my hand, but the right side of my lips went numb, then my tonge, the roof of my mouth and my throat. She told me to take a break, and breathe through a paper bag, which i did. She called back after 10 minutes to check on me...I was feeling better then as the feeling came back to my mouth and my vision restored a bit. But I had the worst headache ive ever had...a migraine im suspecting...so I went home.
If thats Hyperventilation w/ a panic attack...jesus fuck....wow.
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Finally got my hair cut. Not short enough. Its chin length but still damaged so its poofy at the bottom. Im cutting it myself tonight. And the dye...im so done with the brown. Its just blah for me. So its going black again tonight as well.
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Found my Grateful Dead cd the other day. Yay!!
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Christmas is nearing....yup....Christmas. By by paychecks...hello shitty creditcard bills. Bastards.
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Weekend Movies:
The Day After Tomorrow. I liked the effects and the boy (shhh)...but the movie on a whole, yea not so good. Snow cones for all!!
Envy. Jack Black is alwayed welcomed on my television. But it kinda sucked. I mean, they pupmed up this whole thing about the poo going somewhere....yet we got nothing.
Saved. I thought it was actually pretty cute. My friend couldnt figure out weather they were poking fun at religion or promoting it. I think a little bit of both....less promoting and more of toleration... in a fucked up point of view.
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Theres this thing in the No Friends group that askes you to list 5 things about you...I listed a few. But thought it would give a better insite to others about myself if I listed it here as well....along with others. + cause im bored:
1) Mother colapised in the kitchen & seizured before being rushed to the hopitial on X-Mas Eve when I was 2. Only to learn she had a cancerous brain tumor.
2) Father took his own life when I was 10, leaving myself, my older sister and mother who was seriously effected by the cancer, alone.
3) Got into some trouble when I was 14 and was made an example out of by being sent to Juvinele Boot Camp for 6 months.
4) Droped out of High School at 16...Finishing up now. Learned the hard way you cant get anywhere w/o a Diploma.
5) And um....Very into Photography. I will have my own gallery one day. Trust me on that one. & I dont like digital.
6) I have problem with dying my hair. I cant keep it one color or style for more than a few months. I get too bored...odd cause I dont deal well with change.
7) I am a very very quiet person unless I know the majority of the people Im haning around with. Or I get a few drinks in me. But even then, its takes some coxeing.
8) Ive been told by...everyone that I am a good listener and friend. And know when to keep my mouth shut. Personally I dont believe I have good advice, but I guess just listening and letting people vent helps just as much sometimes.
9) My friends owe me 6 months of their lives.....(see #3 and 8)
10) Get very very parrionoid when I smoke the pot. heh. Used to be a big head in Jr. High though...but times, they are a changin'
11) I have an odd issue with stickers. Like an OCD with them. Its weird. I love them, but I will NEVER take them off the sheets. And will flip out when someone else uses any of mine. I dont know, its trippy.
12) I hate clowns. Dont know why. I just fucking hate them.
13) I hate the sun too. I do. Im white...I burn. And its bright. I'd prefer an overcast day um...anyday.
14) Lakes freak me out. I wont go in one. And rather not go out on a boat on one either.
15) Have a fear that im going to set something on fire. Which is why I can never throw my cigarettes out the window while driving. And always think back, "Did I put that ciagrette out at home?"
16) I try to write poetry and short storys. Which always turn out morbid in some way. Even though I start them out nice. I dont think my lifes that morbid, nor is my mind.
17) Male dependent
-Chi
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My bodys fucked up and I think its trying to tell me something. I need to take this as a sign. Im only 22, I should be this messed up...
--I had a situation at work today. According to my doctor, who I called in a panic cause I thought I was having a stroke, I had Hyperventilated w/ a slight panic attack.
--I was typing a prescription and out of the blue, couldnt type correctly. The keyboard was out of focus and I couldnt make out where the keys were. Very confused....I had to help a customer and out in the isle as I grabed an item of the shelf, my hand looked odd to me, as if it wasnt my own and I felt very very funny...I walked away and my vision of my feet were odd as well.. I started talking to the Pharmacist and was unable to focus on him, my right eye was blurry and my right fingertips became numb, then my index finger and my thumb..this lasted about 10 minutes. Which is when I called my doctor..as I was talking to her I regained feeling in my hand, but the right side of my lips went numb, then my tonge, the roof of my mouth and my throat. She told me to take a break, and breathe through a paper bag, which i did. She called back after 10 minutes to check on me...I was feeling better then as the feeling came back to my mouth and my vision restored a bit. But I had the worst headache ive ever had...a migraine im suspecting...so I went home.
If thats Hyperventilation w/ a panic attack...jesus fuck....wow.
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Finally got my hair cut. Not short enough. Its chin length but still damaged so its poofy at the bottom. Im cutting it myself tonight. And the dye...im so done with the brown. Its just blah for me. So its going black again tonight as well.
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Found my Grateful Dead cd the other day. Yay!!
_______________________________________________________
Christmas is nearing....yup....Christmas. By by paychecks...hello shitty creditcard bills. Bastards.
______________________________________________________
Weekend Movies:
The Day After Tomorrow. I liked the effects and the boy (shhh)...but the movie on a whole, yea not so good. Snow cones for all!!
Envy. Jack Black is alwayed welcomed on my television. But it kinda sucked. I mean, they pupmed up this whole thing about the poo going somewhere....yet we got nothing.
Saved. I thought it was actually pretty cute. My friend couldnt figure out weather they were poking fun at religion or promoting it. I think a little bit of both....less promoting and more of toleration... in a fucked up point of view.
_______________________________________________________
Theres this thing in the No Friends group that askes you to list 5 things about you...I listed a few. But thought it would give a better insite to others about myself if I listed it here as well....along with others. + cause im bored:
1) Mother colapised in the kitchen & seizured before being rushed to the hopitial on X-Mas Eve when I was 2. Only to learn she had a cancerous brain tumor.
2) Father took his own life when I was 10, leaving myself, my older sister and mother who was seriously effected by the cancer, alone.
3) Got into some trouble when I was 14 and was made an example out of by being sent to Juvinele Boot Camp for 6 months.
4) Droped out of High School at 16...Finishing up now. Learned the hard way you cant get anywhere w/o a Diploma.
5) And um....Very into Photography. I will have my own gallery one day. Trust me on that one. & I dont like digital.
6) I have problem with dying my hair. I cant keep it one color or style for more than a few months. I get too bored...odd cause I dont deal well with change.
7) I am a very very quiet person unless I know the majority of the people Im haning around with. Or I get a few drinks in me. But even then, its takes some coxeing.
8) Ive been told by...everyone that I am a good listener and friend. And know when to keep my mouth shut. Personally I dont believe I have good advice, but I guess just listening and letting people vent helps just as much sometimes.
9) My friends owe me 6 months of their lives.....(see #3 and 8)
10) Get very very parrionoid when I smoke the pot. heh. Used to be a big head in Jr. High though...but times, they are a changin'
11) I have an odd issue with stickers. Like an OCD with them. Its weird. I love them, but I will NEVER take them off the sheets. And will flip out when someone else uses any of mine. I dont know, its trippy.
12) I hate clowns. Dont know why. I just fucking hate them.
13) I hate the sun too. I do. Im white...I burn. And its bright. I'd prefer an overcast day um...anyday.
14) Lakes freak me out. I wont go in one. And rather not go out on a boat on one either.
15) Have a fear that im going to set something on fire. Which is why I can never throw my cigarettes out the window while driving. And always think back, "Did I put that ciagrette out at home?"
16) I try to write poetry and short storys. Which always turn out morbid in some way. Even though I start them out nice. I dont think my lifes that morbid, nor is my mind.
17) Male dependent
-Chi
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what a bummer.