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AHHHH!!! I fucking hate men!
Forgive my rant...dont read unless you want to hear bitching:

Her 1st child, Nathan..a beautiful boy from the day he was born. -She found out she was pregnant...Rick was no where to be found...he visited ONCE when we was 2 months old...nothing since. Not a call, money, diapers...nada. 1 asshole down.
She met Doug, nice guy, lived next door, loved Nathan. He moved in, she got pregnant...but all was okay. 5 months into her pregnancy...'doug, you need to save money', 'doug, you need to save money...' DOUG! YOU NEED TO SAVE MONEY!'. He's hasnt bought Nova once fucking thing. No clothes, toys, furniture. He's parents sent money to buy a crib. Candace has bought everything else. Nothing bought for Nathan either. He doesnt buy food (for himself or them), no diapers, no paying for Dr. appointment, medicine for Candace or Nathan, didnt help pay for the sitter when she was driving 1 1/2 hrs to and from work.
She's due in 3 weeks. 3 FUCKING WEEKS! and he hasnt done a god damn thing. She opened up his bill, which he knew about...$300 cell phone bill! WTF!? and thats behind. He's behind on his car payments too.
She's waiting for him now, to return home, 5 hours later from when he said he'd be home. But no, he's at Dennys, talking to a friend about a Karate School he wants to start up in Vegas...WHICH IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN MAN! all along, while his 9 month pregant with his daughter girlfriend, is crying her eyes out, stressed out to no end...is sitting at home. Asking herself why she let him fuck with her for this long.
Shes debating on weather to kick him out. But then what? The only reason she's still in Orange Co. is because of him..."no, lets stay here. Raise Nova here". And also cause his credits so damn bad that he cant get another apt. So she feels stuck. Where can she go? No one can move out with her. He parents are way to fucked on their own and god know I wont let her move back with them. No room anyways...litterally.
If it comes down to it... i'll just fucking move with her. I'll figure something out for paying rent, getting a new job..whatever it takes cause you DO WHAT YOU FUCKING HAVE TO DO!

Fuck man, are all the good guys burried under a pile of shit and dead?

Candace is a wonderful person. Fucking great mother. Beautiful. Intelligent. Independent (hey, she's paying her way and taking care of her shit). Tough. Careing.

I hate seeing her like this. I kills me. I have to figure something out for her. To get her out of this shit. He needs to get his head knocked on and some sence smacked into him. Wanting to get married and all, but cant even step up to take care of his kid. We'll see. I really hope everything goes well.






I swear I smelt you in my room this morning. And when I got home from work. The lingering of your scent in my heart is now overwhelming. Months have past, and nothing has changed. Images of you overpower my every thought. Ive tried to drink you out, smoke you away, fuck you off my body. You dwell. Are my stains still on your sheets? Is my make-up sitting in your corner closet? Have you forgotten my passwords to all my secrets or erased my thigh from your camera? I know now a smile can be burned into a wrinkle. A poris heart clogged with sut. I move on, walk everyday knowing. -Love is not patient, love is not kind. It does envy and boast. It is rude and self-seeking, and is eaisly angered and keeps records of wrongs. Love does delight in evil and does not rejoice with truth. It never protects, never trusts, never hopes, neverperservers. Love fails.-