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So I've been up since 2 this morning, so much for getting a good nights sleep for once. It feels like forever since I've been able to sleep through a night, unless I was drunk but thats different. I haven't been drinking so much lately which is good. It was becoming something more than just drinking with my friends having a good time or at least it felt like it and that scared me. I was up to see the sunrise today, how terribly fucking disappointing. I love living in Toronto but somtimes I miss seeing a decent sunrise, or the stars at night. I want to go camping, hanging out aroudn a fire with some friends and a couple guitars, being out on the water just relaxing without all the shit that goes on in the city. I just woke up feeling so lonely and shitty today, I need to go do someting that will make me happy. I was thinking about getting a tattoo on my wrist.

I've been wanting to get that for a while now. I guess thats enough of being emo and depressed. I think there was something else I wanted to say but forgot. Fuck it, I'll probably be feeling fine in a few hours, I usually do when I get like this.

Isn't SG karaoke tonight? I'll ask Lotus when and where it is. Maybe I'll get some friends to go, that'll be fun.