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To the one I once loved,

I know your pain because I have felt it too. To love someone so much you would give up everything you love and that loved you (twice) to be with that one person. I know the pain because I felt it for two years, crying yourself to sleep night after night because there was nothing else you could do because you were alone. You cannot make someone love you nomatter how hard you try... I never wanted to hurt you and I am deeply sorry if I did. I always wanted to make you happy, but there is only so much of yourself you can give someone before you yourself lose just that. I lost who I was and was replaced with an unhappy shell of a person. I know this was never your intensions and that is why I have refrained saying anything until now. You were my world and I was alone, my soul starved to death on the shores of southern california and I will never be the same. I am not bitter though, I learned how to be alone and my own person a lesson I am very thankful for... Life has a habit of changing people and that is what has happened to me, but I don't want you to think for one minute it has changed the bare essentials of who I am... You of all people should know how much I respect trust and nomatter how hard it was to open up I was always honest with you... So it hurts me to know you don't think of me as a trust worthy person. You are portraying me as someone who didn't try, who didn't give it their all and I gave you everything I could give and it wasn't good enough for you. Now its too late, I have come to terms with the fact that we are not meant to be and I am greatful for the times we had, but I know that that is what it will stay, what we had. Our lives are no longer meant to be lived together and nomatter what you need to believe to come to terms with that I am glad that you finally are... I will always have a place for you in my heart even though seeing you is hard for me and I am cold. Its my way of not letting myself get hurt again.
So take what I have taught you and live a wonderful life... That is what I intend to do. You can't live in the past or you will wake up one day and it will all be gone...

Love Always
Brittney Nicole