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Wednesday Dec 05, 2007

Dec 5, 2007
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So, I've come to realise that I've built my walls up pretty high. I am petrified of getting close to anyone and yet I often feel lonely. I know it's not good for me to live like this but in my present situation to try and change things seems rather hopeless and therefore it's better to just carry on as I am. On the other hand that could be just the most bullshit excuse ever and I'm just being a coward and I need to just get over it!

Urgh just having a mopey few days. Constant arguements at home, and now my grandad has managed to put himself back in hospital by over doing it. Work is just so bleurgh at the moment too! And somehow I keep managing to spend all my money! I don't know how!! But I REALLY need to save regardless of what I end up doing.

Can you have a future with someone that you get on well with but have very little in common? I'm too much of a dreamer sometimes, I have far too many romantic notions in my head. I've put on a film that I thought would cheer me up but instead it's reminding me of someone I'm missing, but probably isn't missing me.
stenno:
Awwwww frown Break those walls down missy and open yourself up to people! If you never let people in then you're likely to pass by that special person! Have a good weekend smile
Dec 6, 2007

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