I'm not used to being alone. I don't know what to do with myself. I find it so ironic because I'm always complaiNing of feeling alone when people are around and now that I'm literally alone I'm full of all sorts of emotions.
I don't know which way to direct my attention to at the moment as its still all fresh to me to be separated and not looking forward to a divorce. Some things aren't forever and some are inevitable.
I haven't finished school and kinda feel bummed out that I have to push it back again one more time.
I wish I could take some happy pills because all I feel lately is anger. I'm angry at him and myself and the world. I don't want to be angry anymore. The more I try to move on about my life the more I feel myself building thick walls around me.
I feel like I'm suffocating, suffering in silence yet at peace and full of relief.
I'm just rambling like I do,.... but one thing I'm sure of is that I'm happy I'm back here because I can let go without judgement and be me without having to give people any reasons. Oh and well the bewbs, the bewbs are great ;)
