cherry

A friend is having serious problems. It breaks my heart to hear her so upset. She's had such a hard time for the last five years + when things seem to get better they crush her again. When things like this happen I feel so powerless. I feel like I want to lift the world for her. I want to make everything right. Why am I so weak?

I'd love to be a superhero. A superhero with special healing powers. Powers to heal one's physical health, but also powers to heal the soul, to heal the mind. It's scarey how vulnerable we are as humans with emotions. Data (warning:trekky moment) strives to be more human, to have a soul, to have feelings. But why? So he can feel pain? There was an episode where he helped a young boy through a period of grief. He convinced the boy that for all the pain he would feel, to be happy, to taste nice things, and to love all the pain would be worthwhile.

Some people just seem to experience an extrodinary amount of pain. But when they have to go through both physical + mental pain it is horrible to watch. When the mental pain is a result of the physical pain, but the physical pain won't go away without the restoration of the mental pain. What a horrid viscious circle.

I feel so powerless, so weak. I would give the world to help people like my friend. It pains me to watch.

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My kitty has also gone in to be neutered today. We had to leave him. They put him in a cage. I hope he's OK. I hope he understands. I hope he doesn't resent me for leaving him there.