Hello freakbabies.
How did it get to be the weekend already? And it's Saturday night, it still feels like it could be Thursday.
I'm feeling much better today, thanks you all. It's got a little easier now. It sounds mean, but I'm trying not to think about it too much. I know she's happier now, and it felt like she came to say goodbye to me last night. I slept for about 12 hours straight (after hardly sleeping all week) and had the most wonderful dream about her. The funeral is on Thursday, I'll get to say goodbye then. I know it's not quite the same, but it'll help me put her to rest. I'll always love her. Living so far away I never got to see her sick, but hearing the stories was enough to put the wind through me. I know she's happy now though. Life goes on. I'm sure she'd want us to think this way.
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So, lots has happened in the last three weeks or so... I haven't really told you anything, eh? Well, to save you all the boredom of reading through paragraphs of long-winded descriptions I shall present you a list of mini factoids:
*I cut my hair really short about 3 weeks ago. It was so long it was getting close to my bum. But it annoyed me. So I took the scissors too it. At the back it's now above my neck.
*I'm looking forward to having fun with fake hair. But for now I love my new hair cut.
*College is a huge amount of daunting fun. I've met a couple of cool people. Not many though. Seeing as the photography course is actually an arts course I thought there might actually be some fun weird people on the course. They all seem kind of normal, though. Maybe they get weird.
*The work has started straight away, which is nice because I was scared of being bored and waiting around.
*It's mostly projects based. That's fun. There's a Theory module (art theory, as a posed to photography theory) which seems incredibly boring. I won't know for sure until it starts though.
*I love that I'm being set specific targets. Until now my photography had been kind of random (for the most part). Now it's all about exploration of ideas. Sounds geigh to some, but like fun to me.
*It's just going to be weird getting back into the whole reasearch thing and keeping "sketch books and technical diaries". I've been out of school way too long as it all sounds incredibly difficult and scary.
*I got a grant from the Welsh government, which was unexpected so I got to buy a new camera (insert MASSIVE smiley face here)
*I need to find a new place to live as the rent here is cripling me.
*I've lost a tonne of weight in the last month or so. This week I fit into a size extra small for the first time ever.
*I actually feel pretty good about myself and the way I look for the first time in a hell of a long time. Please take all mirrors away though, I don't want it to go to my head (kidding).
*My cat got a fat belly, so I changed his food to Iams and now I weigh it out. He's so healthy now. His fur is so shiny and he loves the Iams so much he purrs when he's eating!
*I've been wanting to shoot a new set for weeks, but I'm waiting for some specialist lights I ordered to come. They're taking a hell of a long time.
*My tattoo healed goood. Pictures soon.
*I'm having to miss out on a field trip with school because of my Nan's funeral. It sounds like it's going to be fun. But I wouldn't forgive myself if I missed her day.
*I'd really like to buy some gloves, but nowhere sells fingerless gloves. All I want is some plain black, woolly fingerless gloves. You'd think they'd be easy to come by what with all the 80s fashion revival.
*Some people resent the retro fashion revivals, but I don't because it means cool clothes will be cheap in the sales. Good clothes are so hard to come by, and I just don't have as much time to sew any more.
*The new series of Stargate SG1 is on TV. I love those guys.
*The reruns of the whole of Buffy (all seasons) are almost coming to an end
*I don't normally watch that much TV. I guess you hate me now.
*I'd like to buy a new record this week, it's been ages since I had a new record to listen to. Too long.
*Vinyl Stickons (my band) are on the radio tomorrow night with a live session we did exclusively for DJ, Adam Walton... British Listeners can catch it on 93-104FM after 9PM... for the rest of you, you can listen here: BBC - Adam Walton
(Time Conversions:
4pm Eastern Time
1pm Western Time)
That'll do for now. Hope you had fun finding out about my past few weeks.
:cherry:
How did it get to be the weekend already? And it's Saturday night, it still feels like it could be Thursday.
I'm feeling much better today, thanks you all. It's got a little easier now. It sounds mean, but I'm trying not to think about it too much. I know she's happier now, and it felt like she came to say goodbye to me last night. I slept for about 12 hours straight (after hardly sleeping all week) and had the most wonderful dream about her. The funeral is on Thursday, I'll get to say goodbye then. I know it's not quite the same, but it'll help me put her to rest. I'll always love her. Living so far away I never got to see her sick, but hearing the stories was enough to put the wind through me. I know she's happy now though. Life goes on. I'm sure she'd want us to think this way.
__ - - __
So, lots has happened in the last three weeks or so... I haven't really told you anything, eh? Well, to save you all the boredom of reading through paragraphs of long-winded descriptions I shall present you a list of mini factoids:
*I cut my hair really short about 3 weeks ago. It was so long it was getting close to my bum. But it annoyed me. So I took the scissors too it. At the back it's now above my neck.
*I'm looking forward to having fun with fake hair. But for now I love my new hair cut.
*College is a huge amount of daunting fun. I've met a couple of cool people. Not many though. Seeing as the photography course is actually an arts course I thought there might actually be some fun weird people on the course. They all seem kind of normal, though. Maybe they get weird.
*The work has started straight away, which is nice because I was scared of being bored and waiting around.
*It's mostly projects based. That's fun. There's a Theory module (art theory, as a posed to photography theory) which seems incredibly boring. I won't know for sure until it starts though.
*I love that I'm being set specific targets. Until now my photography had been kind of random (for the most part). Now it's all about exploration of ideas. Sounds geigh to some, but like fun to me.
*It's just going to be weird getting back into the whole reasearch thing and keeping "sketch books and technical diaries". I've been out of school way too long as it all sounds incredibly difficult and scary.
*I got a grant from the Welsh government, which was unexpected so I got to buy a new camera (insert MASSIVE smiley face here)
*I need to find a new place to live as the rent here is cripling me.
*I've lost a tonne of weight in the last month or so. This week I fit into a size extra small for the first time ever.
*I actually feel pretty good about myself and the way I look for the first time in a hell of a long time. Please take all mirrors away though, I don't want it to go to my head (kidding).
*My cat got a fat belly, so I changed his food to Iams and now I weigh it out. He's so healthy now. His fur is so shiny and he loves the Iams so much he purrs when he's eating!
*I've been wanting to shoot a new set for weeks, but I'm waiting for some specialist lights I ordered to come. They're taking a hell of a long time.
*My tattoo healed goood. Pictures soon.
*I'm having to miss out on a field trip with school because of my Nan's funeral. It sounds like it's going to be fun. But I wouldn't forgive myself if I missed her day.
*I'd really like to buy some gloves, but nowhere sells fingerless gloves. All I want is some plain black, woolly fingerless gloves. You'd think they'd be easy to come by what with all the 80s fashion revival.
*Some people resent the retro fashion revivals, but I don't because it means cool clothes will be cheap in the sales. Good clothes are so hard to come by, and I just don't have as much time to sew any more.
*The new series of Stargate SG1 is on TV. I love those guys.
*The reruns of the whole of Buffy (all seasons) are almost coming to an end
*I don't normally watch that much TV. I guess you hate me now.
*I'd like to buy a new record this week, it's been ages since I had a new record to listen to. Too long.
*Vinyl Stickons (my band) are on the radio tomorrow night with a live session we did exclusively for DJ, Adam Walton... British Listeners can catch it on 93-104FM after 9PM... for the rest of you, you can listen here: BBC - Adam Walton
(Time Conversions:
4pm Eastern Time
1pm Western Time)
That'll do for now. Hope you had fun finding out about my past few weeks.
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I'm gonna go lay down and see if I can sleep. I still don't feel great. I'll send you an email tomorrow.
the reason was not only did i finish the salon website, but I was up chatting to new love interest (member til69) and he's coming round later to watch 80's cartoons! yay!!
tomorrow's journal will probably be something along the lines of