Yesterday was a weird day for me. The air was so still and the street so quiet. As I left the house to buy some comfort chocolate I felt like the world had ended and someone forgot to tell me.
The leaves werent even moving on the trees. My road is usually very busy with people and cars, yet there wasnt either in sight (nor sound). My heart aches today. I try to calm her and comfort her. Shes just not having it.
I like it when the breeze flows through my hair. But it wasnt. The air was almost dead, and the sky thick with the scent of pollen. I have bouncy soles on my trainers. But they werent bouncing on the dry pavement.
Nothing was bouncing yesterday; everything dropped dead today. Everythings too heavy.
Emotion is possibly the heaviest thing to have to carry around with you. It burns at my soul. Disappointment is gut wrenchingly hurtful.
Today Im filled with something that I cannot tell anyone. Something, which is for me to work out and for them to know when Im ready.
Big changes are coming my way. Whether they are good or bad Im ready for them. All thats left to know is if my friend will rise above the emotion and the connections and still be my friend forever. Like they promised.
I dont want to lose a friend, but I dont want to lose me either. Selfish, I know.
Tell me good stories of love. I want to know it will work one day. I want to know that my heart will not be continuously shattered.
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The leaves werent even moving on the trees. My road is usually very busy with people and cars, yet there wasnt either in sight (nor sound). My heart aches today. I try to calm her and comfort her. Shes just not having it.
I like it when the breeze flows through my hair. But it wasnt. The air was almost dead, and the sky thick with the scent of pollen. I have bouncy soles on my trainers. But they werent bouncing on the dry pavement.
Nothing was bouncing yesterday; everything dropped dead today. Everythings too heavy.
Emotion is possibly the heaviest thing to have to carry around with you. It burns at my soul. Disappointment is gut wrenchingly hurtful.
Today Im filled with something that I cannot tell anyone. Something, which is for me to work out and for them to know when Im ready.
Big changes are coming my way. Whether they are good or bad Im ready for them. All thats left to know is if my friend will rise above the emotion and the connections and still be my friend forever. Like they promised.
I dont want to lose a friend, but I dont want to lose me either. Selfish, I know.
Tell me good stories of love. I want to know it will work one day. I want to know that my heart will not be continuously shattered.
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I've had a shitty weekend too. Where you have written, "Emotion is possibly the heaviest thing to have to carry round with you. It burns at my soul. Disappointment is gut wrenchingly hurtful.".. that pretty much sums up my current feelings.
Every time you think you've hit rock bottom, the ground falls away from beneath your feet.
Things will get better one day. Because they have to. They can't carry on this way forever.
your gunna be ok, you may not feel like it but you have totally made up your mind and your ready to move on! i can tell by the way your saying things! you willlll be ok! i promice! you have a strong head on those shoulders and you still sound clued up to what your doing! i'm not worrying for you because i know how hard it is but i know that you will be fine and happier, which is the main thing!
just think new college in a couple of months new faces and a new beginning!
stick it out hun!