chemicallylost

upon the realization of the direction my life is headed i have decided not to come clean completely but to merely slow the flow of the self-destructive path i have begun to travel down. Eventually i know that i will break lose from these chains that bind me. These chains include physical and pyschological addiction to every chemical substance that produces a the false state...
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what the fuck is wrong with me. i have drank enough alcohol this weekend to kill a small elephant. i know this because i tested it. i went to the honolulu zoo stole a baby elephant and force fed it the same amount of alcohol we had drank thursday night. the elephant died we went back to the bar. so the question is why does...
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to Boddah pronounced
Speaking from the toungue of an experianced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile comlain-ee. this note should be pretty easy to understand. all the warnings from punk rock 101 courses over, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with indepedence and the embracement of the community has proven to be very true. i havent felt...
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to Boddah pronounced
Speaking from the toungue of an experianced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile comlain-ee. this note should be pretty easy to understand. all the warnings from punk rock 101 courses over, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with indepedence and the embracement of the community has proven to be very true. i havent felt...
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to Boddah pronounced
Speaking from the toungue of an experianced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile comlain-ee. this note should be pretty easy to understand. all the warnings from punk rock 101 courses over, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with indepedence and the embracement of the community has proven to be very true. i havent felt...
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to Boddah pronounced
Speaking from the toungue of an experianced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile comlain-ee. this note should be pretty easy to understand. all the warnings from punk rock 101 courses over, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with indepedence and the embracement of the community has proven to be very true. i havent felt...
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to Boddah pronounced
Speaking from the toungue of an experianced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile comlain-ee. this note should be pretty easy to understand. all the warnings from punk rock 101 courses over, since my first introduction to the, shall we say, ethics involved with indepedence and the embracement of the community has proven to be very true. i havent felt...
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being a million miles away
can you get my letter
i write it over and again
try to make it better

use a liter and a spoon
only thing that kills the pain
i can taste salvation
with this needle in my vein

thoughts are flowing through my head
with morphine levels raised
i write this to remember
uncontrolled, completely dazed

the world slows down...
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i promise i'll never be your beast of burden.
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yeah i didnt sit here and make this thing i stole it from some other site because thats the kind of person i am

so i'm back in hawaii which sucks to me i know alot of poeple out there would love to be here but i just want to go home and hang out with my freinds and family. and most importantly kobe. ok maybe not most importantly but deffiantly up there in the top portions. i have been back for about 6 hours now and i am...
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The sun came up with no conclusion
Flowers sleeping in their beds
This city's cemetery's humming
Im wide-awake, its morning
I have my drugs, I have my woman
They keep away my loneliness
My parents have they have their religion
But sleep in separate houses
So Im drinking, breathing, writing, singing
Everyday I'm on the clock
My mind races with all my longings
But cant...
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