chemdog

Man it's been a while since I have posted. Well some things are diffrent. I have decided to break out of my bubble and try the whole dating thing again. I am talking to someone and I am enjoying it very much. He is very nice and he seems very intrested in me, I am actually excited about it, very good thing. Me and my lovely friend aren't really talking anymore, and that saddens me. I love him very much, but I don't really think he wants to make that effort to be my friend. I am tired of defending myself all the time, he never seems to believe my intentions. It's very hard though, he was my rock I told him everything, I miss talking to him so much. I am trying to be very strong about it, but I have noticed that it has been a bit depressing. I keep hoping that he will miss me enough to want to talk to me, I just don't want to be the one to always try. I want him to want to be a part of my life, I don't want to feel like im jamming myself down his throat. Heres to hoping. On to other things though. There has been some changes at work, but im confident that they will all be good changes, so im not worried. Im in a very good place right now even though I miss my lovely Paolo. It will all end good, no matter what happens. Im optomistic.