Long time no updates so here we go. Still missing her greatly but still texting with my ex gf every week. I have seen her a couple of times but each time she “never noticed me” or we both were working so could not talk and twice I just avoided seeing her (turned tail and ran). I miss her in my life but I am not ready to just be friends yet. I discovered that one night when sitting at the bar with her talking when she went to talk to someone else and I had to watch him touching her hair. I was not jealous when we were together but man that really hurt, specially since she was really drunk and did not really notice what was happening and yes I later helped put her in a cab [by her self] and sent her home, and did not punch out the creepy guy at the bar (he was hoping she was so drunk he could get some). But I still have deep feeling for her and am not ready to just be friends, at least not yet. As for the rest of my life I have been spending a lot of time with my kids and dealing with autism can really be a challenge, my son’s meds have just been adjusted finally but it was out of wack for to long and really hard on him and us. He is doing better now on the new med levels but still has some really bad days. My ex wife is an all star and has carried most of the load and my boy is luck to have her as a mom. I don’t think the average person has any idea of just how hard and stressful it can be. Most parents hope their kids don’t forget to bring home their lunch box and homework, we just hope he comes home alive every day from school ,he is a runner and has busted out of school several time and the school is on a busy street, there have been several very close calls. March break is coming and last year he went missing for just over two hours and it was the longest cab ride of my life when we went to the search command center , had to be Mr positive with ex has she thought we were going to identify his body. He was later found several miles away from the March break camp safe and unhurt but that day took years off me and March break is coming up again (this year he is in and different special needs camp and should be much safer).
In other news my boss was just let go and they are hunting for a new Chef at work so I get to re-establish my roll in the kitchen again and hope that I get to keep my job once the New Chef starts, I hate starting over from step one after so 28 yrs of cooking you would think I would not have to worry about my job, shitty but that is life.