Well I don’t really know when it happened but I did see it coming, I no longer have a gf, we still text each other everyday but she does not ever want to meet up and spend time together and on the odd time that we do she is very quiet and distant. It was a year ago that we started to see each other and the past year was great., I will miss holding her next to me, feeling touching me, biting my lips & neck, making love but mostly I will miss the long talks and her company. I think we will still be friends but right now I am feeling a little blue.
This is also the first year that I don not have my children for Christmas, I will get to see two of them tomorrow in the morning but my eldest and ex just had a big fight and she left the house in tears and is heading back to her apartment and does not want to see anyone tomorrow. Man the Holidays can be so stressful sometimes. I am trying really hard not to be down but with a broken heart and upset kids it is not easy to keep the Christmas spirit going, time to put Blue Yule on (best Christmas Blues album ever) and see if Lightening Hopkins can lift me up a bit.
Merry Christmas to All (still not too down)
